Good Morning

It's a new day! It's Sunday morning and the kids are watching cartoons. I'm drinking coffee and talking to you.

I finally feel like we are at the end of a really long and difficult week. I know that my woes are much less than that of others. So many people that are near and dear to me are going through difficult times in their lives. My sister, for one, and my online friend Scott Story, and even my co-workers Chris and Jenny (who I've become friends with). My troubles are small compared to what others are going through. Sometimes, life is a bitch and you just have to try to muddle through.

I think I've finally muddled through this week. I'm not happy about being 40. But my mom keeps saying that it's better than the alternative! LOL. Another thing she has been telling me, and I've probably already typed this.....you're only one day older than your were yesterday. Ok, I can live with that.

I've always known that I would turn 40 someday, lol, but in my mind I pictured being 40 as a whole different experience. What I pictured was that I would have finally gotten myself pulled together and I would be a thin and sexy 40 year old. People would look at me and say, "you're 40? I don't believe it!" (Hey, it's my little dream world ok, so don't laugh!)

I think these birthdays, like 30 or 40 or 50, etc make you look at your life. I wonder if we expect ourselves to have accomplished certain things at these incremental birthdays? I know that I did. For sure by the time I was fourty I would be thin! Well, didn't happen. But I'm working on it. And more diligently than I have in a really long time. Before, it was more of a "I want to look thin and sexy" kind of thing. Well, I don't know that I've ever been sexy, but I wanted to look good. At this point in my life, at 40, I'm looking at it from a health standpoint.

I don't want to die young. So many people die from things related to obesity. I have high blood pressure and I'm on the edge of diabetes. Dr. Kern scared the hell out of me by telling me all the bad things that can happen to someone with diabetes. And if you know me, you know that there is no way in HELL that I'm going to give myself an insulin shot every day. Not going to happen. I don't want to have a heart attack or a stroke, or any of those other terrible things that can happen to me because I couldn't control my eating and I didn't exercise. So, that's my new motivation! My health.

I'm going to stop thinking about my age. Hopefully now that my birthday has passed I will stop getting teased about turning 40. Kathie, bless her heart, didn't give me a "40" birthday card. The other ones I got were teasing about being 40. That's ok, I would do the same thing. When Tina turns 40, she better look out because she has been ribbing me like crazy! Well, she wants a stripper for her 40th birthday, which is only 3 years away. We'll see! ;)

So today I'm off to Costco with Kathie. And I have laundry to do, that's the excitement of my day. Tomorrow I go back to Biolife to try to donate plasma again. I'm trying like heck to do it so I can have extra Christmas money. I'm praying that it goes good and I'm able to donate. I'll be medicated so everything should be good, lol.

Last, but not least, I have been so busy that I have been out of touch with what is going on with politics these days. I haven't seen OReilly in a week, for crying out loud! I'll have to go over to Scott's blog and see what's going on. You know how I like to bitch about politics, but I haven't watched the news in a week, so I can't even complain about Obama because I don't know what's been happening. Except the Nobel Peace Price! How ridiculous! What was he awarded that for? Because he is the first black president? Really, who gives a shit. He hasn't done anything, in my opinion, to make world peace. He's just looked the other way while Iran is making nuclear bombs and sending up test rockets.

Enough about that, I'll have to actually watch the news and see what is going on before I go too far, lol. Thanks for listening.