Changing My Tune!

I can be such an ass sometimes.  I'm writing in green tonight.  Want to know why?  Of course you do.  Because I hate green and when I'm writing in my journal and I need to put in information on Paul or something that he does, I write in green....that way it sticks out and I can easily find that information later.

So, tonight I'm in green.  Because if green means asshole, then tonight, I'm green.

I've been bitching and crying about having two jobs and about not being able to sell our house and for having 3 car payments, and on, and on, and on.  At the same exact time, I have a very good friend who is a single mom.  She has just packed up her 3 kids and moved across the country in a quest to give them a better life.

Do you know what she is asking for?  She is asking for her own place to live.  A home to call her own, to raise her kids in, for her kids to have roots.  She wants to work and she is smart as hell!  All my friend is asking for are the necessities of life that some of us (i.e. me) take for granted.

I'm not saying that my stress isn't real and that I don't have problems that I need to get off my chest.  Anyone who reads my blog knows that I totally use it as a stress reliever to keep my sanity.  It's my therapy.  But sometimes, you need to have a little slap of reality.  Be thankful for what you have even if you are stressed and worried.  I have a roof over my head and a good job.  I'm not worrying about these things on my own anymore.  I used to be a single mom so I know how hard it is.  I was a single mom for almost 5 years and it's hard to have the responsibility of being both parents.  I don't have to do it alone anymore and I take that for granted sometimes.  Stupid.

So, tonight I am not going to bitch and complain about anything.  I'm going to say that I am thankful for what I have and I'm thankful to have such a great family and great friends.  My friends are always so good to me and they support me when I need them most.  One of my friends is really struggling right now and I wish I knew how I could help her.  She's a great person and she really needs for someone to give her a break.  I'm going to say a prayer for her tonight and ask that doors are opened for her and that whatever plan God has for her, that He will give her strength and hope.  Something great is waiting for her just around the corner....I just know it.