A Pox Upon Us

Hmmmm, what to write about tonight.  Sometimes I don't know which direction I want to take until I actually start writing.


I'll start off with my morning.  John is just covered with chicken pox.  What freaks me out the worst is that he has them on the edge of his eyes, like right on the lash line.  In his ears, in his hair....all over.  He is miserable.  So miserable that I actually got him to take an oatmeal bath.  Once he got in, he totally loved it.  Except he plugged the tub when he tried to drain it.  Was funny, I put on a rubber glove and had to scoop out all the oatmeal into a bag when the water was finally out of the tub.  Sami was quite entertained by the oatmeal in the bottom of the tub.

I didn't want to go to work today.  I wanted to stay home with John, but I had to do payroll.  I'm sure all the guys at work really watned to get paid next week, so I went in and did payroll and some reports that are due to home office on the 20th.  I squeezed alot into today and busted my ass getting stuff done in case I don't get back in tomorrow.

Anyhow, I left for work and pulled around the side of the house to get the mail.  In the mail was an open house invitation for Jason's friend Nick.  Nick is the nicest kid and he's a good friend to Jason.  I love it, he calls me Mom.  So, I get his open house invitation in the mail and I start to cry.  And I cry all the way to work because I'm having a little slap of reality.  Jason is done with school a week from Friday and I'm just not handling it well. 

I was talking to Scott about it tonight cos I had to miss my therapist appt this week.  I tried to tell him it's different for mom's.  He was so sweet, he let me talk and tell him how freaked out I was feeling....and I'm crying the whole time I'm talking....and just listened to me.  He was so nice to me.  I have a really great husband and I'm so lucky to have him.   Even though he pisses me off to no end sometimes, I'm lucky to have him.

So, John is miserable.  Sami has been running a fever so I figure she's warming up for the full pox.  She has two on her now.  One on her face and one of her back.  She's had two shots, but the doctors office said she may get a mild case.  Geez.  I can't keep taking time off work.  Seriously, I've only worked like 5 hours this week.  Luckily, Scott worked oer 60 hours last week and will this week too so his check will be good.  Otherwise, we'd be screwed.

Well, I have a confession to make.  I actually started this post on Tuesday night.  I got so tired that I ended up saving it as a draft and falling asleep with my computer in my lap.  So, I'm finishing it tonight and posting it.  Sorry.

Jason got all his graduation stuff today and I cried.  I am just not ready for him to be all grown up.  For now, he's planning on staying at home for a while and go to college, but the first time we butt heads he'll be outta here.  I just know it.  I can feel my throat closing in on me just thinking about it.  And the other bad thing is that Jourdan will be a Freshman this fall.  I mean, Jason was just a Freshman a couple weeks ago.  How can Jourdan be going into High School?  She's my baby girl.

Life can really slap you in the face sometimes.  I'm relying on my friends and Scott to get me through this.  Just so you know ahead of time.  Beth, I wish you could be here for his Open House....I'm going to be a basket case and i could use your positive words to help me through it.  Guess I'll have to lean on a large jug of Sangria.  Bummer me.

Ok, it's almost midnight....and even though I'm not tired I need to try to sleep.  I have to work tomorrow and still now sure whatr I'm going to do with the kids.  I have to go to a trade show at 12:30 and then go to work.  We'll see what happens and who I can drum up.  I don't dare to take Sami to daycare with her two pox.....if that's what they actually are.  Looks like it is, but I'll know better tomorrow.

Until then, goodnight all.