Busy, busy, busy! I've been so busy the last couple weeks I haven't had time to do much of anything extra. So, finally...here I am. Actually, I went to work today and when I got home I was so sleepy. I don't know why. Maybe the weather? I slept good last night, but I was just so tired.
Jourdan had already started dinner when I got here. What a sweetheart. So we had dinner, and I could hardly keep my eyes open. After we cleaned up the kitchen I sat in my recliner under my blankie and I was out like a light. I woke up at 7:40 pm. So, I slept for over an hour. I guess I was really tired.
I'm laughing because I asked Jourdan where Scott was and she said he'd gone to bed about 40 minutes ago....so he was in bed at 7pm. I can't get too upset because he gets up at 3am and then works 12 hours, so it's a long day. Jourdan had the kids showered and in their jammies. All I had to do is take a shower and tuck in the kids. So, tonight I was spoiled.
Now, my only problem is that it's late and I'm not sleepy in the least!
We had a great weekend. Friday, Sami and I went shopping to buy gifts for the TMAT Christmas party we're having Wednesday. We have a list of 12 categories and the movers vote. And then Rob usually goes out and gets gifts and gift cards that we hand out to the winners. Last year, he talked me into doing the talking and passing out the gifts. This year, he talked me into doing the shopping as well.
Hopefully, I did a good job and everything will turn out good. So I spent all day Friday running around looking for the perfect gifts for each category. Then I went out on Saturday and spent most of the afternoon doing the same thing. I had just a few things left to get and Scott and I went on Sunday to finish up all the gifts. You have to realize, these need to be decent gifts, but also comical and ironic. We have categories like: "strongest mover", "fastest mover", "biggest schmoozer", etc.
I think I did a good job. I was taking ideas from Scott and Jourdan and I think that between the three of us, we did a great job.
Our party is at Craigs Cruisers. If you don't know what that is, it's like a Chuckie Cheese on steroids. Our guys love it! They have an indoor go-kart track and there is alot of competition between our movers. Friendly of course, lol!
So, with working on that for the last three days, and then working today, I have neglected everything I need to do. I still haven't wrapped a single gift. I planned on wrapping gifts all day Friday while I was doing laundry. Didn't happen. I have my Christmas cards all addressed but haven't had time to go to the post office to buy stamps. I've had them done for about two weeks and they are still sitting on the counter ready to go.
I haven't done Christmas cards in several years. For quite a while we couldn't afford them. This year, I bought smaller cards that will take one regular stamp to send. That's not so bad. I saw someplace on the news...maybe Fox News that they were saying the cyber Christmas cards are replacing regular cards. Scott's mom was big into the e-cards. I love the Christmas ones that you have to click on something for another thing to happen. They are so cute.
My friend Kathy already sent one like that to us. I guess they are ok for internet buddies, but I wanted to send out actual cards this year. Jason was having a fit because he wanted to put a picture in the cards for some of the family. I told him I could take a picture of the kids in front of the tree and within an hour, they would have them ready at Meijer. Well, he can't find the time to do that for me so I don't know what I'll do yet.
I think he feels especially bad for his Grandma Miller. Both kids told me that she doesn't have any recent photo's of the kids. The only ones she has are super old...makes me feel bad. I ran into her at Meijer and she told me that nobody stops to visit her. I think she's just lonely. So, if I can't get a picture of the kids in the next day or so I will just print a couple that I already have that are really nice and put them in a card for her. I have Jason's senior pictures, which are awesome, and then Jourdan's pictures from her dance she went to. She looked so beautiful!
New topic: My whole thing with Christmas....I LOVE snowmen. Aside from my villages, everything is snowmen in my house. I even have fleece snowmen blankets. I just happened to look over at the dog and she has moved a blue fleece blanket that has snowmen all over it and made a nest. She is out cold! I would take her picture, because she looks so cute, but if I get up and go in my room she will follow me.
It's the oddest thing. She has been stuck to me like glue lately. She's always been a "family' dog and she'll lay over on the floor by Scott's side of the bed. But lately, she is attached at the hip...with me. The other day, I was in the shower and when I shut if off and pulled open the curtain, she was laying there on the rug next to the tub. She must have pushed open the door and there she was. So, I start shutting the door and when I open it, she's laying in the hall right outside the bathroom door.
I've been spending a few nights in the recliner lately. You may not know this, but Scott has a little snoring issue....lol. So, I'm out here in the recliner and then when he gets up at 3 he wakes me up and I go in to bed. But more than once, she's jumped up into the recliner and slept on top of me. She's 115 pound german shepherd. And if she's not on top of me, she is laying on the floor right next to me. And she snores, for crying out loud!
When I go to bed, she jumps up on the bed and sleeps on the foot of the bed on Scott's side.
I guess she's a mama's dog!
Anyhow, just wanted to stop in and say hello. Christmas is always busy for me. I tend to go a little overboard, I admit it. But it's sneaking up on me faster that I'd like. I have alot to do, and I'm running out of time to get it all done. I haven't even done my holiday baking yet. I planned on it for Saturday, but ended up shopping for Rob. C'est la vie!
Until next time.....
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Let The Festivities Begin
Sorry, it's been about a week since I wrote. I haven't really had any great topics to write about and I'm sick of bitching about this, that, and the other thing.
We had a busy weekend! Jason worked all weekend and Jourdan was gone to her dad's. It's the first time in weeks that she's been over there. Probably been closer to over a month since she's been at her dads, but I think they were going to decorate their Christmas Tree.
So, on Saturday Scott and I went to Indiana to look at a boat. I didn't really want to go, but Scott wanted me to go.....so I went. It was a really nice boat, a 25 ft Sea Ray....I think that was the brand. Doesn't matter. Anyhow, was nicer than the boat we used to have, but not as deep. Our Thompson had really deep sides and I felt so much safer. The sides actually were about waist high on me and in this boat, in the back, the boat was much shallower. Probably thigh deep. It's a deep V bottom boat, but the floor has alot of storage in in, and then you go down two steps into the cabin.
So, I don't know. Scott told me that Thompson's are much deeper boats and most other boats probably won't be that deep. The thing I liked about our boat is that I felt safe with the kids on it because John couldn't even see over the side because it was so tall. And Sam would be the same way right now. The boat we looked at this weekend was clean and bigger and beautiful, but the sides just aren't as high as what I'd like.
I told Scott it's hard for me to compare anything because I've only ever been in our boat for any length of time. So, I would prefer something deeper. We found a couple more Thomspon's but are waiting to get pictures back from the owners. The bad thing is, one is in Cleveland. There is another one down by Toledo, so that's not so bad. But Scott sent me another one today that's for sale and I can't remember where it is, but someplace in Ohio.
It sucks to run all over Ohio to look at boats, especially right now. The weather sucked on the way down. It was foggy and it snowed and we were in the Focus, how stupid are we, lol. Anyhow, we made it back safe.
The kids stayed with my mom and dad. They don't spend much time with my parents so it was really nice that they got to spend the day with them. After the drive down to Indiana, I was so happy we'd decided not to bring the kids. They would have hated all the driving. We were gone from 8:30 -4:00. That's a long day for two kids in the truck. When we went to Ohio a couple weeks ago, they drove us crazy and that was just over four hours. And we had the Excursion so they had the TV to watch movies.
Remember when we were kids and all we had for entertainment was an 8 track tape player. I remember driving up north to Mackinaw Bridge in the Valiant. We listened to the Meatloaf 8 track tape over and over and over. I remember after the fourth or fifth time, my dad said...."ok, that's enough Meatloaf". Lol
Now the kids have Nintendo DS to play with, DVD player in the truck with heated leather seats that recline. They have IPod's and handheld games, even the laptop. How did we survive???? I can't even imagine one of my kids having to drive into Grand Rapids (20 minutes) without watching a movie in the truck. It cracks me up.
Many many years, my parents took us kids up north in our old black and white stiped van. We just sat on blankets in the back because there were only two bucket seats up front. I even remember one year my parents borrowed my grandpa's green pickup truck, put a topper on it, and Tina and I sat in chaise loungechairs in the back. There was no back window to open, so we had a notebook and my mom had a notebook and we wrote notes back and forth on the trip up to the Bridge and back. I'd have to ask Tina, but I think that's the year we hit a skunk! Talk about gross!
It's so funny to think about how things were when I was a kid. A movie I love to watch at Christmas time is Christmas Story. Look at their life and compare it to ours as children and we had it much better. Now look at our childhood and compare it to our kids. I'm wondering how it will be for John and Samantha's kids someday? Kids are so spoiled in todays world as it is, I wonder just how much more spoiled they can be?
Well, not a real exciting topic tonight, but interesting to think about. I'll be posting some pictures of my Christmas decorating around the house. I keep telling you how Christmas crazy I am, so I went around the house and took some random pictures of my decorating. I'll post them here or on my facebook page.
Scott worked today, so it was just John, Sami and I at home. We had Christmas music playing and we put our gingerbread house together and decorated it. Well, I lied.....I actually assembled it a day or two ago. I was telling Beth the best way to get the house put together is to use caulk, and I wasn't kidding. It's stickier than the frosting they give you. Plus, they barely give you enough for decorating. Anyhow we had to let that dry and today we put all the decorations on it. I'll be posting a picture of that too.
We had a great day today. It's very festive around my house right now. My shopping is coming along nicely....I just have to get wrapping. I haven't wrapped a single gift, and when you have four kids....you should be wrapping in October, lol.
Until next time.....sweet dreams!
We had a busy weekend! Jason worked all weekend and Jourdan was gone to her dad's. It's the first time in weeks that she's been over there. Probably been closer to over a month since she's been at her dads, but I think they were going to decorate their Christmas Tree.
So, on Saturday Scott and I went to Indiana to look at a boat. I didn't really want to go, but Scott wanted me to go.....so I went. It was a really nice boat, a 25 ft Sea Ray....I think that was the brand. Doesn't matter. Anyhow, was nicer than the boat we used to have, but not as deep. Our Thompson had really deep sides and I felt so much safer. The sides actually were about waist high on me and in this boat, in the back, the boat was much shallower. Probably thigh deep. It's a deep V bottom boat, but the floor has alot of storage in in, and then you go down two steps into the cabin.
So, I don't know. Scott told me that Thompson's are much deeper boats and most other boats probably won't be that deep. The thing I liked about our boat is that I felt safe with the kids on it because John couldn't even see over the side because it was so tall. And Sam would be the same way right now. The boat we looked at this weekend was clean and bigger and beautiful, but the sides just aren't as high as what I'd like.
I told Scott it's hard for me to compare anything because I've only ever been in our boat for any length of time. So, I would prefer something deeper. We found a couple more Thomspon's but are waiting to get pictures back from the owners. The bad thing is, one is in Cleveland. There is another one down by Toledo, so that's not so bad. But Scott sent me another one today that's for sale and I can't remember where it is, but someplace in Ohio.
It sucks to run all over Ohio to look at boats, especially right now. The weather sucked on the way down. It was foggy and it snowed and we were in the Focus, how stupid are we, lol. Anyhow, we made it back safe.
The kids stayed with my mom and dad. They don't spend much time with my parents so it was really nice that they got to spend the day with them. After the drive down to Indiana, I was so happy we'd decided not to bring the kids. They would have hated all the driving. We were gone from 8:30 -4:00. That's a long day for two kids in the truck. When we went to Ohio a couple weeks ago, they drove us crazy and that was just over four hours. And we had the Excursion so they had the TV to watch movies.
Remember when we were kids and all we had for entertainment was an 8 track tape player. I remember driving up north to Mackinaw Bridge in the Valiant. We listened to the Meatloaf 8 track tape over and over and over. I remember after the fourth or fifth time, my dad said...."ok, that's enough Meatloaf". Lol
Now the kids have Nintendo DS to play with, DVD player in the truck with heated leather seats that recline. They have IPod's and handheld games, even the laptop. How did we survive???? I can't even imagine one of my kids having to drive into Grand Rapids (20 minutes) without watching a movie in the truck. It cracks me up.
Many many years, my parents took us kids up north in our old black and white stiped van. We just sat on blankets in the back because there were only two bucket seats up front. I even remember one year my parents borrowed my grandpa's green pickup truck, put a topper on it, and Tina and I sat in chaise loungechairs in the back. There was no back window to open, so we had a notebook and my mom had a notebook and we wrote notes back and forth on the trip up to the Bridge and back. I'd have to ask Tina, but I think that's the year we hit a skunk! Talk about gross!
It's so funny to think about how things were when I was a kid. A movie I love to watch at Christmas time is Christmas Story. Look at their life and compare it to ours as children and we had it much better. Now look at our childhood and compare it to our kids. I'm wondering how it will be for John and Samantha's kids someday? Kids are so spoiled in todays world as it is, I wonder just how much more spoiled they can be?
Well, not a real exciting topic tonight, but interesting to think about. I'll be posting some pictures of my Christmas decorating around the house. I keep telling you how Christmas crazy I am, so I went around the house and took some random pictures of my decorating. I'll post them here or on my facebook page.
Scott worked today, so it was just John, Sami and I at home. We had Christmas music playing and we put our gingerbread house together and decorated it. Well, I lied.....I actually assembled it a day or two ago. I was telling Beth the best way to get the house put together is to use caulk, and I wasn't kidding. It's stickier than the frosting they give you. Plus, they barely give you enough for decorating. Anyhow we had to let that dry and today we put all the decorations on it. I'll be posting a picture of that too.
We had a great day today. It's very festive around my house right now. My shopping is coming along nicely....I just have to get wrapping. I haven't wrapped a single gift, and when you have four kids....you should be wrapping in October, lol.
Until next time.....sweet dreams!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Black Friday Fun
Thanksgiving weekend has come to an end, and WOW was it a busy four days. I had the best Thanksgiving Day because we had a great dinner and I actually got to sit at the table with all four of my kids. It's a rare treat these days. Jason has been pretty scarce lately, which is typical of an 18 year old. I miss him like crazy.
So we just had a family Thanksgiving this year and it was GREAT! And then......shopping!
Jourdan and I stayed up all night long and went to Walmart. We went with Tina, Dani, and Mom. By 10:15pm we were at Walmart and stood there waiting until Midnight to get our bargains. Ok, that part wasn't so great, but we got alot of stuff and I was really happy with all the great things I got for Jason. I mean, they had towels for $1.33 each. I'm thinking Jason's going to need about 15 towels to take with him for his dorm. Anyhow, I put Jourdan in charge of grabbing the towels. Trust me, people were actually fighting over stuff, so I told her to grab fast and not let anyone steal her towels out of the cart, lol.
When all was said and done, she ended up with 25 towels in the cart. Not sure how she confused 15 with 25, but it's ok since they were such a good deal. Anyhow, I got all kinds of good stuff.
Then, we were off to Target. We had some breatkfast at IHOP. It's like they didn't realize it was Black Friday because they had only 2 servers for the entire restaurant and there were tons of people in there. So, breakfast took forever. I still didn't care.
As we were sitting there eating our breakfast we could see Target across the street and cars were just pouring in. Their doors opened at 4am and it was only 1:30 am. After breakfast, we drive over to Target and it's snowing and blowing like crazy. It was 27 degrees and people had tents set up along the front of Target. Seriously, people had tents! There were probably already 100 people in line and still several hours til the store opened. They had a pretty good deal on TV's and I'm thinking that's what people were after.
I'm sorry, but a 48" TV for $400 wouldn't be worth staying overnight in tents in front of Target, in the snow!
Once we got inside they didn't have anything on my list that I wanted to buy. It really pissed me off. After wandering around the store I finally came across one of the items I'd had on my list. Someone must have put it in their cart and put it down someplace else deciding they didn't want it. I would have left right then, but Tina and Mom had stuff. After waiting in the truck for hours, we weren't going to just leave. So, for an hour and a half we waited in line.
Needless to say, I won't be going to Target next year. They put out ads and then had only 2 or 3 of that item. When you have 2000 people in the store, thats what the security guard guy told us, they should have more than 2 or 3 of something they are offering a good deal on. Target can kiss my ass!
I was so crabby by this time that I didn't want to shop anymore. I was pissed off that I didn't really get anything on my list and I had been up all night long.
I got home about 6:30 and of course Scott had been up for hours. He was ready to go do something. I told him he was crazy and I was going to sleep. He wanted to take off and go to Home Depot before the kids woke up. I didn't want to leave them here with Jourdan, because she had been up all night with me too.
So, Scott let me sleep for about 2 1/2 hours and then dragged me out of my chair to go shopping. I've never felt tired like I did then. Once I got up and took a shower I felt better. I guess I just had to wake up.
Even though our shopping trip wasn't perfect, thanks to Target, Scott and I had a great day out and about shopping. We had John and Sam with us, and they were really good. We went to Menards and got some of their sale items. I discovered last year that they don't just have 2 or 3 of something, they have 2 or 3 skids of whatever they have on sale. I got everything that was on my list and it was 10am. 4 hours after their sale started.
We went to Home Depot too. I hate going to Home Depot with Scott. I always tell him it's like him going into a craft store with me, lol. Anyhow, he bought a snowblower. We've gotten like a half inch of snow and he bought this mammoth snow blower. Seriously, it's HUGE! I'm laughing because reality hit him that Jason is moving out. All of the sudden he realized that leaves HIM to shovel the snow. Last year we got a butt load of snow and that was Jason's job, to make sure the driveways and sidewalk stayed clear. So, now we have this massive snowblower in the garage.
We did do some more Christmas shopping and then lunch at Branns. By then, I'd had enough fun for the day. I'm thinking I'm too damn old to stay up all night for shopping. I remember when I could stay up all night partying and then go to work for 8 hours. Basically what my son is up to these days, lol. Well, even though I love the whole shopping deal, next year I won't be staying up all night to go shopping.
Thanksgiving weekend is over now and Scott and I have to go back to work tomorrow. The kids have tomorrow off school. They don't go back until Tuesday! I feel like I had a successful shopping weekend. I'm pretty much done shopping for Jason and Jourdan. Now, on to the younger ones. Tough to shop for them when they are with me. I used to be able to get away with it when i took Sami, but she pays way too much attention to what goes into the cart, and then she knows what is in the bags when we get home. And she wants it. So, I can't shop with her.
Last year, I did alot of shopping during my lunch hour at work. Looks like I'll have to do the same this year, which is fine. Meijer, Kmart, and the mall are all within 5 minutes of my office. I'm not letting time get away from me this year where I wait until the very last minute and then I'm scrambling to find what I want.
I'm tired, and I have to get up early for work so I'm off to sleep. Sami has been sick for a couple days with a crappy cold. Hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow because I don't want to take her to daycare with a snotty nose. I'm one of those mom's who keeps her kids home when they are sick. It really pisses me off when parents send kids to school or to daycare when they are sick, because one of my kids will always get whatever cootie they have. Then, we all get it. Before I get all pissy about it, I'll save that topic for another day! Until next time....
So we just had a family Thanksgiving this year and it was GREAT! And then......shopping!
Jourdan and I stayed up all night long and went to Walmart. We went with Tina, Dani, and Mom. By 10:15pm we were at Walmart and stood there waiting until Midnight to get our bargains. Ok, that part wasn't so great, but we got alot of stuff and I was really happy with all the great things I got for Jason. I mean, they had towels for $1.33 each. I'm thinking Jason's going to need about 15 towels to take with him for his dorm. Anyhow, I put Jourdan in charge of grabbing the towels. Trust me, people were actually fighting over stuff, so I told her to grab fast and not let anyone steal her towels out of the cart, lol.
When all was said and done, she ended up with 25 towels in the cart. Not sure how she confused 15 with 25, but it's ok since they were such a good deal. Anyhow, I got all kinds of good stuff.
Then, we were off to Target. We had some breatkfast at IHOP. It's like they didn't realize it was Black Friday because they had only 2 servers for the entire restaurant and there were tons of people in there. So, breakfast took forever. I still didn't care.
As we were sitting there eating our breakfast we could see Target across the street and cars were just pouring in. Their doors opened at 4am and it was only 1:30 am. After breakfast, we drive over to Target and it's snowing and blowing like crazy. It was 27 degrees and people had tents set up along the front of Target. Seriously, people had tents! There were probably already 100 people in line and still several hours til the store opened. They had a pretty good deal on TV's and I'm thinking that's what people were after.
I'm sorry, but a 48" TV for $400 wouldn't be worth staying overnight in tents in front of Target, in the snow!
Once we got inside they didn't have anything on my list that I wanted to buy. It really pissed me off. After wandering around the store I finally came across one of the items I'd had on my list. Someone must have put it in their cart and put it down someplace else deciding they didn't want it. I would have left right then, but Tina and Mom had stuff. After waiting in the truck for hours, we weren't going to just leave. So, for an hour and a half we waited in line.
Needless to say, I won't be going to Target next year. They put out ads and then had only 2 or 3 of that item. When you have 2000 people in the store, thats what the security guard guy told us, they should have more than 2 or 3 of something they are offering a good deal on. Target can kiss my ass!
I was so crabby by this time that I didn't want to shop anymore. I was pissed off that I didn't really get anything on my list and I had been up all night long.
I got home about 6:30 and of course Scott had been up for hours. He was ready to go do something. I told him he was crazy and I was going to sleep. He wanted to take off and go to Home Depot before the kids woke up. I didn't want to leave them here with Jourdan, because she had been up all night with me too.
So, Scott let me sleep for about 2 1/2 hours and then dragged me out of my chair to go shopping. I've never felt tired like I did then. Once I got up and took a shower I felt better. I guess I just had to wake up.
Even though our shopping trip wasn't perfect, thanks to Target, Scott and I had a great day out and about shopping. We had John and Sam with us, and they were really good. We went to Menards and got some of their sale items. I discovered last year that they don't just have 2 or 3 of something, they have 2 or 3 skids of whatever they have on sale. I got everything that was on my list and it was 10am. 4 hours after their sale started.
We went to Home Depot too. I hate going to Home Depot with Scott. I always tell him it's like him going into a craft store with me, lol. Anyhow, he bought a snowblower. We've gotten like a half inch of snow and he bought this mammoth snow blower. Seriously, it's HUGE! I'm laughing because reality hit him that Jason is moving out. All of the sudden he realized that leaves HIM to shovel the snow. Last year we got a butt load of snow and that was Jason's job, to make sure the driveways and sidewalk stayed clear. So, now we have this massive snowblower in the garage.
We did do some more Christmas shopping and then lunch at Branns. By then, I'd had enough fun for the day. I'm thinking I'm too damn old to stay up all night for shopping. I remember when I could stay up all night partying and then go to work for 8 hours. Basically what my son is up to these days, lol. Well, even though I love the whole shopping deal, next year I won't be staying up all night to go shopping.
Thanksgiving weekend is over now and Scott and I have to go back to work tomorrow. The kids have tomorrow off school. They don't go back until Tuesday! I feel like I had a successful shopping weekend. I'm pretty much done shopping for Jason and Jourdan. Now, on to the younger ones. Tough to shop for them when they are with me. I used to be able to get away with it when i took Sami, but she pays way too much attention to what goes into the cart, and then she knows what is in the bags when we get home. And she wants it. So, I can't shop with her.
Last year, I did alot of shopping during my lunch hour at work. Looks like I'll have to do the same this year, which is fine. Meijer, Kmart, and the mall are all within 5 minutes of my office. I'm not letting time get away from me this year where I wait until the very last minute and then I'm scrambling to find what I want.
I'm tired, and I have to get up early for work so I'm off to sleep. Sami has been sick for a couple days with a crappy cold. Hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow because I don't want to take her to daycare with a snotty nose. I'm one of those mom's who keeps her kids home when they are sick. It really pisses me off when parents send kids to school or to daycare when they are sick, because one of my kids will always get whatever cootie they have. Then, we all get it. Before I get all pissy about it, I'll save that topic for another day! Until next time....
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Shopping Madness
I'm simply giddy over the fact that it is officially "The Holiday's". Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I know I've already told you that Scott and I are just making dinner for us and the kids. It's great having family over, but when you have a family that doesn't mesh well together, it can be really stressful. So, we're doing our own thing. Plus, we like to have the leftovers! :)
As you know, I've been fighting a flu cootie for a week now. I'm trying to figure out exactly what it is that is going on within my body. I don't usually hang onto funk for this long. I think that being tired and stressed is contributing to me not feeling better.
Don't care about that right now because nothing, and I mean nothing is going to keep me from my holiday shopping this weekend.
As a side note, I have to add that even though I didn't want to, I went to work today. I had to leave early to get Sami because my daycare lady was pretty frazzled by 9am....not a good sign. Anyhow, I picked up Sami about 1:30 and then stopped home to get John and we were off to Meijer. I had these grand plans of running in quick and getting the few things we needed for dinner tomorrow and something easy to throw together for dinner tonight. Yeah, right!
I think everyone in Lowell and at least 5 surrounding communities were in Meijer this afternoon. Seriously, by the time I got to the frozen foods I had a headache so bad I thought I would vomit. The kids were great, don't get me wrong. They were so good, I was actually shocked. It was just the whole not feeling good thing, the stress of shopping with hundreds of other people, and worrying that I'd forgotten something important. By the time I got home, Jason emptied my truck for me, thank goodness. Jourdan started unpacking bags and putting things away and Scott came in a few minutes later. I went straight to my room and put a pillow over my eyes.
My tension headache had turned into a serious migraine. Scott, bless his heart, kept everyone out of my room and an hour and a half later I emerged feeling much better and my headache was gone.
Ok, got that out of the way. I bought the Grand Rapids Press at the store and discovered that the Thanksgiving Day sale at Meijer was actually better than the Black Friday sale ad. Hmmmm, that's odd. So, to kick off my insane Thanksgiving weekend, I'll be meeting my sister and my mom at Meijer at 5 am tomorrow. As you can see by the time of my post its nearly 1am and I'm still up. Typical me.
I also discovered that Walmart had put their Black Friday ad in the Press early this year and their sale is starting Thanksgiving night at midnight. I'm not kidding. Midnight is the beginning of their sale. And then, their big electronics sale starts at 5am. Do they just want people to hang out at their store for 6 or 7 hours. I wonder if they will have cots set up for us? Hmmmm.......
Anyhow, after my morning adventure to Meijer, I'll be going to meet my mom and sister at Walmart tomorrow night at 10:30pm at Walmart in Ionia. Then we'll hang out, or get breakfast, or something so we can be at Target at 4am in Grand Rapids, which is 30 minutes or so from Ionia. I have to go there because they have a small fridge that I want to get Jason for his dorm. It's not super small, it has a small freezer in it and it's only $119. Plus they have a $38 microwave, and Tina said something about a sandwich maker.
When I first met Scott and we moved in with him, he had a sandwich maker. It's electric, and I don't know whatever happened to it. I think it broke from overuse, lol. Anyhow, it opens and has spots for two slices of bread next to each other, and you butter one side....put a slice of cheese in the middle, and put another buttered slice of bread on top and close it. Scott probably made Jason and Jourdan 500 grilled cheese sandwiches in that sandwich maker when they were kids. They loved them. So, I think Jason needs one in his dorm.
He also asked for a big box of plastic silverware from Costco, which I'm also getting his friend....who is in the other room of the suite. And cups of Ramen soup. Well, at least he's easy to please this year. I was laughing today because he told me that his dad had mentioned something about a microwave for him for
Christmas, but he said he didn't want them to buy it because it would be a cheap piece of crap. Ok, that's fine. But a microwave is a microwave and these small ones aren't anything special. It's for a dorm room for crying out loud. My opinion, let them buy it and I can buy him something else he needs. I mean, the kid needs towels, a hamper, and even dorm size twin sheets for the bed.
So, my weekend will be very busy. Good thing Scott got his check early on Wednesday and I don't have to wait until Friday. Things would get ugly around here if that were the case.
So, it's late and I better try to get some sleep, if my damn stomach will let me. No flu bug is going to keep me from after Thanksgiving shopping. I don't fucking think so!!!!
I'll let you know how that works for me, lol. Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Until next time.....
As you know, I've been fighting a flu cootie for a week now. I'm trying to figure out exactly what it is that is going on within my body. I don't usually hang onto funk for this long. I think that being tired and stressed is contributing to me not feeling better.
Don't care about that right now because nothing, and I mean nothing is going to keep me from my holiday shopping this weekend.
As a side note, I have to add that even though I didn't want to, I went to work today. I had to leave early to get Sami because my daycare lady was pretty frazzled by 9am....not a good sign. Anyhow, I picked up Sami about 1:30 and then stopped home to get John and we were off to Meijer. I had these grand plans of running in quick and getting the few things we needed for dinner tomorrow and something easy to throw together for dinner tonight. Yeah, right!
I think everyone in Lowell and at least 5 surrounding communities were in Meijer this afternoon. Seriously, by the time I got to the frozen foods I had a headache so bad I thought I would vomit. The kids were great, don't get me wrong. They were so good, I was actually shocked. It was just the whole not feeling good thing, the stress of shopping with hundreds of other people, and worrying that I'd forgotten something important. By the time I got home, Jason emptied my truck for me, thank goodness. Jourdan started unpacking bags and putting things away and Scott came in a few minutes later. I went straight to my room and put a pillow over my eyes.
My tension headache had turned into a serious migraine. Scott, bless his heart, kept everyone out of my room and an hour and a half later I emerged feeling much better and my headache was gone.
Ok, got that out of the way. I bought the Grand Rapids Press at the store and discovered that the Thanksgiving Day sale at Meijer was actually better than the Black Friday sale ad. Hmmmm, that's odd. So, to kick off my insane Thanksgiving weekend, I'll be meeting my sister and my mom at Meijer at 5 am tomorrow. As you can see by the time of my post its nearly 1am and I'm still up. Typical me.
I also discovered that Walmart had put their Black Friday ad in the Press early this year and their sale is starting Thanksgiving night at midnight. I'm not kidding. Midnight is the beginning of their sale. And then, their big electronics sale starts at 5am. Do they just want people to hang out at their store for 6 or 7 hours. I wonder if they will have cots set up for us? Hmmmm.......
Anyhow, after my morning adventure to Meijer, I'll be going to meet my mom and sister at Walmart tomorrow night at 10:30pm at Walmart in Ionia. Then we'll hang out, or get breakfast, or something so we can be at Target at 4am in Grand Rapids, which is 30 minutes or so from Ionia. I have to go there because they have a small fridge that I want to get Jason for his dorm. It's not super small, it has a small freezer in it and it's only $119. Plus they have a $38 microwave, and Tina said something about a sandwich maker.
When I first met Scott and we moved in with him, he had a sandwich maker. It's electric, and I don't know whatever happened to it. I think it broke from overuse, lol. Anyhow, it opens and has spots for two slices of bread next to each other, and you butter one side....put a slice of cheese in the middle, and put another buttered slice of bread on top and close it. Scott probably made Jason and Jourdan 500 grilled cheese sandwiches in that sandwich maker when they were kids. They loved them. So, I think Jason needs one in his dorm.
He also asked for a big box of plastic silverware from Costco, which I'm also getting his friend....who is in the other room of the suite. And cups of Ramen soup. Well, at least he's easy to please this year. I was laughing today because he told me that his dad had mentioned something about a microwave for him for
Christmas, but he said he didn't want them to buy it because it would be a cheap piece of crap. Ok, that's fine. But a microwave is a microwave and these small ones aren't anything special. It's for a dorm room for crying out loud. My opinion, let them buy it and I can buy him something else he needs. I mean, the kid needs towels, a hamper, and even dorm size twin sheets for the bed.
So, my weekend will be very busy. Good thing Scott got his check early on Wednesday and I don't have to wait until Friday. Things would get ugly around here if that were the case.
So, it's late and I better try to get some sleep, if my damn stomach will let me. No flu bug is going to keep me from after Thanksgiving shopping. I don't fucking think so!!!!
I'll let you know how that works for me, lol. Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Until next time.....
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Getting Into the Holiday Spirit
I really like the new color for my blog. It's very....pink. Anyhow, Thanksgiving is just around the corner....literally. The day after tomorrow. I haven't even bought everything I need for dinner yet. I'm freaking out, lol. Well, I do have the turkey and stuffing. So, that's a good start.
Aside from fighting a stupid flu bug since last week on Thursday, my spirits are high. I'm not going to talk about work tonight. That'll just cause me to need a pill or a glass of wine. I've been thinking about what I can do to help myself get into the holiday mood.
I'm typically a person who LOVES Christmas. It's my favorite holiday, hands down! This year, I'm going through my typical stress and I've decided that I don't want it to affect my kids. Remember, I'm thinking about positive and happy memories from my childhood. I want that for my kids and Jason and Jourdan remember the Christmas crazy Tracy. Where I decorate every single room in my house.
That's what I need to do this year. Not only do Jason and Jourdan deserve a great famiy Christmas, John and Sami deserve to see Christmas crazy mommy. And that's what they are going to see. This weekend is a big weekend at the Watkins household. Thanksgiving weekend is when we get our Christmas tree and start putting up our decorations.
Jourdan and I are really itching to get the Christmas stuff out. So, I've promised her this weekend we'll get moving on it. I have probably 20 - 25 totes filled with Christmas decorations that Scott will start bringing upstairs for me. And I'll start one by one getting the house around. YAY!!!!
Scott's shop always has a little food thing going on the day before a holiday. Everyone brings a dish to pass and Scott needs to bring my caramel bars and lemon bars. I hope like hell they turn out good as they usually do.
So, after work...that's what I did. I made goodies for Scott to take to work. I go nuts baking during the holidays and I enjoy it. We do the bars, we decorate sugar cookies, peanutbutter bars with mini chocolate chips, pumpkin bread, and all kinds of goodies.
That gave me an idea. I've had a blog page connected to this one for quite some time. I decided to share my favorite holiday recipees on my recipee blog. I can't remember if it was two or three years ago, my mom gave Tina, Jamie and I each a family cookbook. It was one that you fill out your favorite recipees and pass on to your family. There's room for recipees and photo's and cards. It's a pretty cool book.
I don't usually share my recipees because I love to make goodies and share them, and make people happy. But, I'm feeling a little bit sentimental and I'm thinking that it'll get me feeling a little Christmasy!
You don't have to be a great cook to make my favorite recipees. Scott is the cook in our family, but I like to bake. And, I like to make stuff that is easy. You don't have to, but I hope you'll take a look at my recipee blog.....the link is over on the right side of this page....and maybe even try out one or two of the recipees. If you do, please let me know.
I'll share one last memory before I go to my other blog page. Since my kids were very young, they've loved this time of year. When I go into baking mode, I'm not alone. My kids are right in the middle of it. I think their favorite thing to do is the sugar cookies....and then frosting them. Let you know what you think.
Aside from fighting a stupid flu bug since last week on Thursday, my spirits are high. I'm not going to talk about work tonight. That'll just cause me to need a pill or a glass of wine. I've been thinking about what I can do to help myself get into the holiday mood.
I'm typically a person who LOVES Christmas. It's my favorite holiday, hands down! This year, I'm going through my typical stress and I've decided that I don't want it to affect my kids. Remember, I'm thinking about positive and happy memories from my childhood. I want that for my kids and Jason and Jourdan remember the Christmas crazy Tracy. Where I decorate every single room in my house.
That's what I need to do this year. Not only do Jason and Jourdan deserve a great famiy Christmas, John and Sami deserve to see Christmas crazy mommy. And that's what they are going to see. This weekend is a big weekend at the Watkins household. Thanksgiving weekend is when we get our Christmas tree and start putting up our decorations.
Jourdan and I are really itching to get the Christmas stuff out. So, I've promised her this weekend we'll get moving on it. I have probably 20 - 25 totes filled with Christmas decorations that Scott will start bringing upstairs for me. And I'll start one by one getting the house around. YAY!!!!
Scott's shop always has a little food thing going on the day before a holiday. Everyone brings a dish to pass and Scott needs to bring my caramel bars and lemon bars. I hope like hell they turn out good as they usually do.
So, after work...that's what I did. I made goodies for Scott to take to work. I go nuts baking during the holidays and I enjoy it. We do the bars, we decorate sugar cookies, peanutbutter bars with mini chocolate chips, pumpkin bread, and all kinds of goodies.
That gave me an idea. I've had a blog page connected to this one for quite some time. I decided to share my favorite holiday recipees on my recipee blog. I can't remember if it was two or three years ago, my mom gave Tina, Jamie and I each a family cookbook. It was one that you fill out your favorite recipees and pass on to your family. There's room for recipees and photo's and cards. It's a pretty cool book.
I don't usually share my recipees because I love to make goodies and share them, and make people happy. But, I'm feeling a little bit sentimental and I'm thinking that it'll get me feeling a little Christmasy!
You don't have to be a great cook to make my favorite recipees. Scott is the cook in our family, but I like to bake. And, I like to make stuff that is easy. You don't have to, but I hope you'll take a look at my recipee blog.....the link is over on the right side of this page....and maybe even try out one or two of the recipees. If you do, please let me know.
I'll share one last memory before I go to my other blog page. Since my kids were very young, they've loved this time of year. When I go into baking mode, I'm not alone. My kids are right in the middle of it. I think their favorite thing to do is the sugar cookies....and then frosting them. Let you know what you think.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Slap of Reality
As a parent, we want our kids to have a better life than we did growing up. I know that's true for me. I want my kids to have it easier than I had it growing up. And, to be perfectly honest, they have had it easier than I did as a kid. Things change. Technology changes. I would have never dreamt of having a TV, DVD, and satellite TV in my room....and a cell phone. Seriously, I thought I was cool because I had my own radio in my room.
If you read my blog you know I've been thinking alot about my childhood lately. I said in an earlier post that I had decided to seek out the positive moments from my childhood and focus on those. And it has felt really good. Remember I was talking about going to see my Grandpa and how hard that is for me? Well, I talked to my mom about it and I decided that I'm going to go see him regardless of how difficult it is for me....it's not about me. It's about letting my Grandpa know how much I love him and that he was the kind of Grandpa every little kid should have.
I'd hoped to go see him this weekend, but my body had other plans. I've had a case of the flu. I thought I felt better last night after being flat on my back most of yesterday....only to wake up this morning to throw up. I spent most of the day sleeping and finally, I'm just starting to feel better. I hate having the flu. Jourdan and Jason both had it and I pray that it avoids John and Sami. Scott can fend for himself...I'm pissed off at him right now.
Anyhow, I am still tired and feel weak. My body hurts from being sick but I have complete confidence in feeling back to myself tomorrow.
We have a short week next week and I'll be out of work early Monday for John's Thanksgiving music program. So, I figure I can go and visit him after that. I really miss my Grandpa. Not only do I miss him now, but I miss him as he used to be.
When I first opened my blog, I had full intention of talking about Jason. Haven't gotten there yet. I've been getting a taste of what it'll be like when he moves out. I've barely laid eyes on him in about 3 weeks. He's been busy with work, alot of hours, his friends, school, and alot of hunting at his dads. It's ok. He's 18 and he's enjoying his life, and I wouldn't want it to be any other way for him.
He came in from work tonight and wanted to get a quick shower before meeting his friends at the movies. He was in a hurry, but I'd just had a huge fight with Scott and what a mess. And it just hit me how much I've missed him the last few weeks. I know he needs to do his own thing and I know that he's just doing what a normal kid his age does, but he knew that I've been sick and then I'd been crying because Scott and I had been fighting. So, he hugged me. It really made me think of how much I miss seeing him. I kinda feel like it's a test run for when he does move out. And I'll be honest with you....it really sucks. For me, not for him.
He did tell me the other day that it felt good to sleep in his own bed and that he'd missed being home. That made me feel good but I didn't want to make a big deal about it. And I know when he moves to Aquinas in a few weeks that he'll be home on the weekends. Still miss him like crazy though.
Dr. Winters really put it into perspective for me. I've raised a really nice young man who is capable of going out into the world and surviving on his own. He doesn't need to be dependent on anyone, because he can take care of himself and that's the best gift a parent can give a child.
So, I have to look at it that way. I know I've made mistakes. I have regrets. After talking with my mom this week, she shared that she had regrets over things she'd done when I was younger. Funny thing was that I didn't even remember the incidents she was speaking of. I have a feeling it'll be that way with Jason too. Because, overall, I've done ok raising him and he's a good kid. He's mature for his age, and he's responsible. I'm proud of him.
Well, I know I've talked alot about this lately and you're probably tired of hearing about it. I'm sorry. It's been weighing heavy on my heart, and my blog is like a best friend who hangs on every word and is always understanding. Plus, I can always count on Beth to say something wonderful, lol. Until next time friends.....
If you read my blog you know I've been thinking alot about my childhood lately. I said in an earlier post that I had decided to seek out the positive moments from my childhood and focus on those. And it has felt really good. Remember I was talking about going to see my Grandpa and how hard that is for me? Well, I talked to my mom about it and I decided that I'm going to go see him regardless of how difficult it is for me....it's not about me. It's about letting my Grandpa know how much I love him and that he was the kind of Grandpa every little kid should have.
I'd hoped to go see him this weekend, but my body had other plans. I've had a case of the flu. I thought I felt better last night after being flat on my back most of yesterday....only to wake up this morning to throw up. I spent most of the day sleeping and finally, I'm just starting to feel better. I hate having the flu. Jourdan and Jason both had it and I pray that it avoids John and Sami. Scott can fend for himself...I'm pissed off at him right now.
Anyhow, I am still tired and feel weak. My body hurts from being sick but I have complete confidence in feeling back to myself tomorrow.
We have a short week next week and I'll be out of work early Monday for John's Thanksgiving music program. So, I figure I can go and visit him after that. I really miss my Grandpa. Not only do I miss him now, but I miss him as he used to be.
When I first opened my blog, I had full intention of talking about Jason. Haven't gotten there yet. I've been getting a taste of what it'll be like when he moves out. I've barely laid eyes on him in about 3 weeks. He's been busy with work, alot of hours, his friends, school, and alot of hunting at his dads. It's ok. He's 18 and he's enjoying his life, and I wouldn't want it to be any other way for him.
He came in from work tonight and wanted to get a quick shower before meeting his friends at the movies. He was in a hurry, but I'd just had a huge fight with Scott and what a mess. And it just hit me how much I've missed him the last few weeks. I know he needs to do his own thing and I know that he's just doing what a normal kid his age does, but he knew that I've been sick and then I'd been crying because Scott and I had been fighting. So, he hugged me. It really made me think of how much I miss seeing him. I kinda feel like it's a test run for when he does move out. And I'll be honest with you....it really sucks. For me, not for him.
He did tell me the other day that it felt good to sleep in his own bed and that he'd missed being home. That made me feel good but I didn't want to make a big deal about it. And I know when he moves to Aquinas in a few weeks that he'll be home on the weekends. Still miss him like crazy though.
Dr. Winters really put it into perspective for me. I've raised a really nice young man who is capable of going out into the world and surviving on his own. He doesn't need to be dependent on anyone, because he can take care of himself and that's the best gift a parent can give a child.
So, I have to look at it that way. I know I've made mistakes. I have regrets. After talking with my mom this week, she shared that she had regrets over things she'd done when I was younger. Funny thing was that I didn't even remember the incidents she was speaking of. I have a feeling it'll be that way with Jason too. Because, overall, I've done ok raising him and he's a good kid. He's mature for his age, and he's responsible. I'm proud of him.
Well, I know I've talked alot about this lately and you're probably tired of hearing about it. I'm sorry. It's been weighing heavy on my heart, and my blog is like a best friend who hangs on every word and is always understanding. Plus, I can always count on Beth to say something wonderful, lol. Until next time friends.....
Friday, November 19, 2010
Stepping Out Of My Comfort Zone
I am sitting here in bed wondering what I should be writing about tonight. I have a great opportunity being offered to me, and I'm really having a hard time making a decision.
I've actually spent three weeks in therapy talking about this. Sami has been giving me such a hard time about wanting to me be home. It's not that she doesn't like going to Addie's, she absolutely loves it. But she wants me to be home. Everytime I tell her that it's my day off, she tells me how happy she is.
I want to be a stay at home mom. More than anything, I want to be a stay at home mom. We can afford it and the kids miss me. I can't keep up on the housework or the laundry. I'm too tired at the end of the day to take care of anything that the typical mom really needs to do.
So, I have this opportunity to leave my job and stay at home. A few weeks ago I made a list for an entire week. I wrote down every single thing I did.....did I already talk about this? Well, as it turns out, I go to work and on top of that I have a full-time job as a mom. So, Scott is on board. That's good.
So what the hell is stopping me? The money, a little bit. After gas and daycare I'm not making enough for it to really be worth it and Scott has had two raises this year, which makes up for the money I'd be losing. He's even been willing to work overtime to make sure we are ok, financially.
My therapist was really tough on me today. Seriously, she laid into me about the whole work thing. What have I done to resolve my work issues since we talked last week? Nothing! Absolutely NOTHING! It's ridiculous. I'm 41 years ago and I don't like change. So much that I'm not willing to leave a toxic job to be home with my kids. What the fuck is wrong with me?
It's like I just crave the attention I get at work. Positive or negative. It's so damn ridiculous and I piss myself off. It makes me crazy that I can't just make a decision. I want to give my notice to my boss but I can't seem to force myself to do it. Jason works there and I am afraid that if I leave things might not go well for him.
Dr. Winters told me that I keep coming up with these excuses because I don't want to step out of my comfort zone. True. I feel like I protect Jason, but I also know that he is 18 years old and if they treat him like shit, he will simply leave and find another job. Don't know what I'm worrying so much about.
Speaking of Jason, he just got home...gotta run!
I've actually spent three weeks in therapy talking about this. Sami has been giving me such a hard time about wanting to me be home. It's not that she doesn't like going to Addie's, she absolutely loves it. But she wants me to be home. Everytime I tell her that it's my day off, she tells me how happy she is.
I want to be a stay at home mom. More than anything, I want to be a stay at home mom. We can afford it and the kids miss me. I can't keep up on the housework or the laundry. I'm too tired at the end of the day to take care of anything that the typical mom really needs to do.
So, I have this opportunity to leave my job and stay at home. A few weeks ago I made a list for an entire week. I wrote down every single thing I did.....did I already talk about this? Well, as it turns out, I go to work and on top of that I have a full-time job as a mom. So, Scott is on board. That's good.
So what the hell is stopping me? The money, a little bit. After gas and daycare I'm not making enough for it to really be worth it and Scott has had two raises this year, which makes up for the money I'd be losing. He's even been willing to work overtime to make sure we are ok, financially.
My therapist was really tough on me today. Seriously, she laid into me about the whole work thing. What have I done to resolve my work issues since we talked last week? Nothing! Absolutely NOTHING! It's ridiculous. I'm 41 years ago and I don't like change. So much that I'm not willing to leave a toxic job to be home with my kids. What the fuck is wrong with me?
It's like I just crave the attention I get at work. Positive or negative. It's so damn ridiculous and I piss myself off. It makes me crazy that I can't just make a decision. I want to give my notice to my boss but I can't seem to force myself to do it. Jason works there and I am afraid that if I leave things might not go well for him.
Dr. Winters told me that I keep coming up with these excuses because I don't want to step out of my comfort zone. True. I feel like I protect Jason, but I also know that he is 18 years old and if they treat him like shit, he will simply leave and find another job. Don't know what I'm worrying so much about.
Speaking of Jason, he just got home...gotta run!
Monday, November 15, 2010
As Promised
We went to a wedding in Ohio this weekend. A 500 guest wedding, holy smokes! The brides maids, there were a bunch of the, were dressed in a royal blue, and were totally gorgeous. The decorations were fall colors....all the flowers were in fall colors. I've never seen brown flowers, but they were so beautiful. It was an amazing wedding.
We started out early on Friday, we let the kids get out of school early. Jourdan's friend Katie went with us too, which was fun for them. It took us just over 4 hours to get to our hotel in Findlay. The trip wasn't so bad because we have a DVD player in the the Excursion. And, since it's like driving a Winnebago, there is plenty of room for everyone, lol.
It helps that the little ones slept about an hour each, it helped pass the time.
So, we got to the hotel (Holidya Inn Express) unloaded really quick and then headed over to Lima to meet Scott's sister Rhonda, and her family, at Fat Jacks for pizza. It it the absolute BEST pizza I have ever had in my entire life. Hands down, the best pizza ever!
Back when Scott's mom died, his sister Connie was such a bitch and she was the Executrix of the will. She went through 5 years of bank statements and all kinds of other things that were really terrible and ended up dragging the family through probate court. Scott hasn't talked to either of his sisters or his brother since then. A few months ago, his oldest sister Rhonda sent us an email asking us to contact her. She'd had some medical problems and it was really make her think about her life. She missed her brother. She didn't even know that we'd had Sami.
So, we'd been writing back and forth for several months, which was ok because she didn't really have anything to do with the whole mess that Connie created. Rhonda just sort of got stuck in the middle. I'm not saying she was completely innocent, but I think that Scott has forgiven her and has moved on. It was a really hard time in Scotts life to deal with. Both of his parents passed away at early ages and he has a very small family. So, for the last...5 years he hasn't really spoken to any of them until we heard from Rhonda.
So, I let her know we were going to be in Ohio and we decided to meet at Fat Jacks and her whole family was there. It was really nice because she has 3 really nice kids, and all their families were there too. We really enjoyed ourselves and the kids got to meet Aunt Rhonda and cousins that they didn't even know existed until this weekend. And that is a happy thing to have happen.
After dinner we went back to the hotel and hit the pool and hot tub. It closes at 11 but the guy let the kids stay in until 12:30. Not Sami of course, she was out by 11pm. Saturday we shopped, and shopped, and shopped some more. But I got alot of good Christmas presents. Not like you can find Ohio State stuff here in Michigan!
Then, we were off to the reception. This brings me to tomorrow's topic, but I'm not going to spoil this nice post with a shitty comment made by my loving husband. But I'm counting on you girls to back me on this one...so stay tuned.
Lisa gave Scott a corsage so we were able to drink from the bar for free all night long. I had about 10 rum and cokes....ugh! Anyhow, we had a good time. Sami went with us. I wish that Scott would have been a little more social, with me anyways, he knew a ton of people here. I don't mind that. I ended up sitting alone quite a bit with Sami while he chatted up friends he hadn't seen in alot of years. That didn't even bother me. I promise to tell you what DID bother me when I post tomorrow.
For tonight, just the thoughts of a beautiful fall wedding.
Sunday we got up and the kids hit the pool quick before we left. We stopped at Jim and Lisa's to say hi and then we were on our way to Michigan. I think all those run and cokes did something to me because I fell asleep before we got on the 80/90 turnpike in Wausseon and I didn't wake up again until we were almost to 96 just east of Lansing. Made the trip go real fast for me, lol!
All in all, was a good weekend. We got to spend time with Scott's sister and our very good friends Jim and Lisa. We miss them so much! I got the impresssion they didn't think we would show up, and you should have seen their faces when we walked in. I think there was mutual happiness!
The funniest part, aside from the Bride and Groom dance, was Sami dancing and singing, "I like to move it move it, she likes to move it move it, he likes to move it move it. Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you. Going on a hayride, going on a hayride." Don't ask, I have no idea where she got that whole song from. But it was cute as hell.
Until tomorrow, keep positive thoughts and make happy memories....
We started out early on Friday, we let the kids get out of school early. Jourdan's friend Katie went with us too, which was fun for them. It took us just over 4 hours to get to our hotel in Findlay. The trip wasn't so bad because we have a DVD player in the the Excursion. And, since it's like driving a Winnebago, there is plenty of room for everyone, lol.
It helps that the little ones slept about an hour each, it helped pass the time.
So, we got to the hotel (Holidya Inn Express) unloaded really quick and then headed over to Lima to meet Scott's sister Rhonda, and her family, at Fat Jacks for pizza. It it the absolute BEST pizza I have ever had in my entire life. Hands down, the best pizza ever!
Back when Scott's mom died, his sister Connie was such a bitch and she was the Executrix of the will. She went through 5 years of bank statements and all kinds of other things that were really terrible and ended up dragging the family through probate court. Scott hasn't talked to either of his sisters or his brother since then. A few months ago, his oldest sister Rhonda sent us an email asking us to contact her. She'd had some medical problems and it was really make her think about her life. She missed her brother. She didn't even know that we'd had Sami.
So, we'd been writing back and forth for several months, which was ok because she didn't really have anything to do with the whole mess that Connie created. Rhonda just sort of got stuck in the middle. I'm not saying she was completely innocent, but I think that Scott has forgiven her and has moved on. It was a really hard time in Scotts life to deal with. Both of his parents passed away at early ages and he has a very small family. So, for the last...5 years he hasn't really spoken to any of them until we heard from Rhonda.
So, I let her know we were going to be in Ohio and we decided to meet at Fat Jacks and her whole family was there. It was really nice because she has 3 really nice kids, and all their families were there too. We really enjoyed ourselves and the kids got to meet Aunt Rhonda and cousins that they didn't even know existed until this weekend. And that is a happy thing to have happen.
After dinner we went back to the hotel and hit the pool and hot tub. It closes at 11 but the guy let the kids stay in until 12:30. Not Sami of course, she was out by 11pm. Saturday we shopped, and shopped, and shopped some more. But I got alot of good Christmas presents. Not like you can find Ohio State stuff here in Michigan!
Then, we were off to the reception. This brings me to tomorrow's topic, but I'm not going to spoil this nice post with a shitty comment made by my loving husband. But I'm counting on you girls to back me on this one...so stay tuned.
Lisa gave Scott a corsage so we were able to drink from the bar for free all night long. I had about 10 rum and cokes....ugh! Anyhow, we had a good time. Sami went with us. I wish that Scott would have been a little more social, with me anyways, he knew a ton of people here. I don't mind that. I ended up sitting alone quite a bit with Sami while he chatted up friends he hadn't seen in alot of years. That didn't even bother me. I promise to tell you what DID bother me when I post tomorrow.
For tonight, just the thoughts of a beautiful fall wedding.
Sunday we got up and the kids hit the pool quick before we left. We stopped at Jim and Lisa's to say hi and then we were on our way to Michigan. I think all those run and cokes did something to me because I fell asleep before we got on the 80/90 turnpike in Wausseon and I didn't wake up again until we were almost to 96 just east of Lansing. Made the trip go real fast for me, lol!
All in all, was a good weekend. We got to spend time with Scott's sister and our very good friends Jim and Lisa. We miss them so much! I got the impresssion they didn't think we would show up, and you should have seen their faces when we walked in. I think there was mutual happiness!
The funniest part, aside from the Bride and Groom dance, was Sami dancing and singing, "I like to move it move it, she likes to move it move it, he likes to move it move it. Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you. Going on a hayride, going on a hayride." Don't ask, I have no idea where she got that whole song from. But it was cute as hell.
Until tomorrow, keep positive thoughts and make happy memories....
Sunday, November 14, 2010
I Thought I Was Done
I have been thinking over the last week or so that I don't enjoy writing here as much anymore. Sorry to drag up old baggage, but someone ruined it for me. I know, I know....Beth told me to let it go. But it just sits there in the back of my mind...nagging me.
I can no longer write what I want. I can't just write down whatever random thoughts pop into my head. Why? Well, hell, if you read my blog you know why. I can't type just anything anymore because someone might be offended. Someone might think I'm talking about a particular person and make it their business to gossip about it.
Seriously, I sat here tonight thinking to myself that I wasn't going to say "hi" and that I wasn't going to be posting for a while. Still might be the case.
But, I wanted to talk about our weekend. I feel so shitty right now, that talking about our weekend might make me feel a little bit better.
Wait, before I get to that, let me say something. There are so many people who know each other, are friends with each other, or may simply be family. A person may be going through a hard time, and another person reading the blog might think......"quit your bitching, you've got the world by the ass". But that's not always the case. I guess what I'm trying to say is, the grass ISN'T always greener!
When I'm feeling shitty about something, some emotional issue or a personal problem that is going on in my life.....I HATE hearing that I should feel lucky. I have a great husband and four great kids and a nice house and cars. Well, I know that. I am very lucky. I appreciate how hard Scott works to take care of the kids and I. I agree that I have a great husband, and I love him and my kids with all my heart. I would die for my kids.
But that doesn't mean that my life is peachy-keen all the time. This is totally not the topic I wanted to talk about tonight. I wanted to talk about a trip to Ohio. We went to a HUGE beautiful wedding this weekend that I was so glad to be a part of. Scott's best friend Jim and his wife Lisa, their daughter Allie got married to the nicest guy this weekend. That's what I wanted to talk about. I think I'll have to save that for tomorrow because I don't want to talk about such a beautiful thing in the same post as my bitchiness.
With that said, let me ask you a question. I know alot of you will answer "yes" to my question.
Have you ever felt so alone in your life that you just don't know where to turn? You don't know what to do because you feel like you don't have anyone to turn to?
That's a really tough place to be in life. And the reason I went on and on above this is because that's the way I feel right now. And if I were to call any of my regulars, I would get the above lecture. How lucky I am....on and on and on. I know that.
I'm not trying to slam on Scott or make him out to be the bad guy here, he is there for me....most of the time. The problem is that he works a fucking ton of hours. And he's doing it for his family. But he's tired and when he gets home all he wants is a little cat nap. I can't deny a man a cat nap that's worked 13 hours, could you? Then, by 7:30 pm, he's asleep. So, I try to talk to him a little but he get's tired and he wants to sleep. And if I try to keep talking to him....he gets cranky. I would too.
With that said, and my sister and I have talked about this many times, you can't go to your family when there are little bumps in the road with your husband. They hold it against him.
Right now, I'm emotionally needy and Scott can't be there for me. Add to the work thing, he's not a mushy kind of guy. You see, you never really know a person until you've lived with him. So you can tell me how lucky I am to have Scott....I agree. You can tell me how hard it is to find a great guy like him.....I agree. I wouldn't want to lose him for anything.
But what am I supposed to do when i'm going through some really heavy emotional crap? Who do I turn to? I've got nobody. I used to have Janice........
I could tell her anything I wanted, and she didn't judge Scott. She always calmed me down. I miss her and I'm so sad that we aren't friends anymore. I know what the Bible says about forgiveness, but my heart still hurts over what happened. It hurts so bad that it's a physical pain. I don't know if it's something that I will ever get over. It's hard to lose a man that you love. It's also to lose a best friend that you love.
You know, I've kept a journal since 1983 and someday they will all belong to Jourdan. Because I know that she loves that kind of thing. Since I cannot share all of my feelings here anymore, I'll have to turn to my journal where my thoughts will be kept private....for now anyhow. I'll still post, but it'll be different now. I used to look forward to it everyday. What a bummer that someone ruined that for me.
And Beth, I'll still be reading every post you write on your blog. No matter what, I love reading your posts. Sometimes, I burst out laughing. I'll have my headphones on listening to the music and I'll be reading and I wake Scott up from laughing. You make my day. You are my friend. I know I've said it before, but I wish we were neighbors. I can see us sitting across the table in the morning after getting kids off to school to drink tea or hot chocolate.....and chatting....and talking about our kids and our day. That would be so great. That's not to take away from what you have going on now, I know you're working hard to make a great life for you and your kids. If I ever win the lottery or a rich old uncle kicks the bucket, I'm going to buy you a house next door to me, lol!
Well, enough for now. I'm off to write in my journal....and I've been keeping a prayer journal for a while too. Makes me feel better. And I promise to be back to tell you about this wedding we went to. 500 people, the biggest wedding I've even been to. And how much fun the kids had.
Til then, good night.
I can no longer write what I want. I can't just write down whatever random thoughts pop into my head. Why? Well, hell, if you read my blog you know why. I can't type just anything anymore because someone might be offended. Someone might think I'm talking about a particular person and make it their business to gossip about it.
Seriously, I sat here tonight thinking to myself that I wasn't going to say "hi" and that I wasn't going to be posting for a while. Still might be the case.
But, I wanted to talk about our weekend. I feel so shitty right now, that talking about our weekend might make me feel a little bit better.
Wait, before I get to that, let me say something. There are so many people who know each other, are friends with each other, or may simply be family. A person may be going through a hard time, and another person reading the blog might think......"quit your bitching, you've got the world by the ass". But that's not always the case. I guess what I'm trying to say is, the grass ISN'T always greener!
When I'm feeling shitty about something, some emotional issue or a personal problem that is going on in my life.....I HATE hearing that I should feel lucky. I have a great husband and four great kids and a nice house and cars. Well, I know that. I am very lucky. I appreciate how hard Scott works to take care of the kids and I. I agree that I have a great husband, and I love him and my kids with all my heart. I would die for my kids.
But that doesn't mean that my life is peachy-keen all the time. This is totally not the topic I wanted to talk about tonight. I wanted to talk about a trip to Ohio. We went to a HUGE beautiful wedding this weekend that I was so glad to be a part of. Scott's best friend Jim and his wife Lisa, their daughter Allie got married to the nicest guy this weekend. That's what I wanted to talk about. I think I'll have to save that for tomorrow because I don't want to talk about such a beautiful thing in the same post as my bitchiness.
With that said, let me ask you a question. I know alot of you will answer "yes" to my question.
Have you ever felt so alone in your life that you just don't know where to turn? You don't know what to do because you feel like you don't have anyone to turn to?
That's a really tough place to be in life. And the reason I went on and on above this is because that's the way I feel right now. And if I were to call any of my regulars, I would get the above lecture. How lucky I am....on and on and on. I know that.
I'm not trying to slam on Scott or make him out to be the bad guy here, he is there for me....most of the time. The problem is that he works a fucking ton of hours. And he's doing it for his family. But he's tired and when he gets home all he wants is a little cat nap. I can't deny a man a cat nap that's worked 13 hours, could you? Then, by 7:30 pm, he's asleep. So, I try to talk to him a little but he get's tired and he wants to sleep. And if I try to keep talking to him....he gets cranky. I would too.
With that said, and my sister and I have talked about this many times, you can't go to your family when there are little bumps in the road with your husband. They hold it against him.
Right now, I'm emotionally needy and Scott can't be there for me. Add to the work thing, he's not a mushy kind of guy. You see, you never really know a person until you've lived with him. So you can tell me how lucky I am to have Scott....I agree. You can tell me how hard it is to find a great guy like him.....I agree. I wouldn't want to lose him for anything.
But what am I supposed to do when i'm going through some really heavy emotional crap? Who do I turn to? I've got nobody. I used to have Janice........
I could tell her anything I wanted, and she didn't judge Scott. She always calmed me down. I miss her and I'm so sad that we aren't friends anymore. I know what the Bible says about forgiveness, but my heart still hurts over what happened. It hurts so bad that it's a physical pain. I don't know if it's something that I will ever get over. It's hard to lose a man that you love. It's also to lose a best friend that you love.
You know, I've kept a journal since 1983 and someday they will all belong to Jourdan. Because I know that she loves that kind of thing. Since I cannot share all of my feelings here anymore, I'll have to turn to my journal where my thoughts will be kept private....for now anyhow. I'll still post, but it'll be different now. I used to look forward to it everyday. What a bummer that someone ruined that for me.
And Beth, I'll still be reading every post you write on your blog. No matter what, I love reading your posts. Sometimes, I burst out laughing. I'll have my headphones on listening to the music and I'll be reading and I wake Scott up from laughing. You make my day. You are my friend. I know I've said it before, but I wish we were neighbors. I can see us sitting across the table in the morning after getting kids off to school to drink tea or hot chocolate.....and chatting....and talking about our kids and our day. That would be so great. That's not to take away from what you have going on now, I know you're working hard to make a great life for you and your kids. If I ever win the lottery or a rich old uncle kicks the bucket, I'm going to buy you a house next door to me, lol!
Well, enough for now. I'm off to write in my journal....and I've been keeping a prayer journal for a while too. Makes me feel better. And I promise to be back to tell you about this wedding we went to. 500 people, the biggest wedding I've even been to. And how much fun the kids had.
Til then, good night.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Is It November......or June?
Michigan is having the craziest weather right now. It's nearly the middle of November and today, it was 62 degrees outside. I actually ran the AC in my truck on my way home from work! Well, at least we haven't had to use the furnace that much yet. It runs a little in the morning, but that's it. It wouldn't but my kids are sissy pants and don't want to put on a sweatshirt when the temp in the house is below 68 degrees. Oh well.
Today is Wednesday, so it's the last day of my work week. Thank goodness because I am so damn tired. It's been a long week and I'm glad it's done. I have a huge pile of laundry waiting for me downstairs and we thought someone was coming through the house tomorrow....but actually can't until next week. Dodged a bullet there! Jason's room.....well, he's a teenager. I think I've forgotten what color his carpet is because I haven't seen it in so long.
Speaking of Jason, I had a reason for bringing him up, when I got to work today I found out he was named employee of the month. Pretty cool! About 10% of our employees actually end up being named Employee of the Month. There are so many factors that have to come together to even be considered.....it's nuts. Mgt narrows it down to 3 movers and Jason happened to be one of them. I was so excited but I didn't want to let myself get too excited for him in case one of the other guys were chosen. Of course, I voted for Jason. Duh! But I laid out my reasons and they were valid. My boss agreed and one of our CSR's....and the Gen Mgr must have too because Jason was named EOM!
In our office, it's a respect thing. They get a special parking spot for the month, they get a gift card, and they get their photo with a certificate put up on the wall! And it stays there for a year. So, I was really proud of Jason. He just became a driver and I'm really proud of him. I couldn't do the work these guys do. Moving is hard physical work and I have so much respect for the guys I work with. They bust their asses for the company we work for.
Matter of fact, he got to work at 7:30 am and when I talked to him by text at 4:45pm, he and his mover were still at the load. Which means they were still at the "move from" address loading the truck. It's 9:30pm and he's still not home. I don't expect him home until probably midnight. I feel bad because he's supposed to be out by 5 because he has a 7:45am class tomorrow, but I think everything got crazy in the office with my co-worker being out for his father-in-law. So, I think the fact that Jason should be out by 5 got overlooked. He doesn't complain though. He just tells me that he's a man, he'll suck it up and get the job done. Well, that's why he is employee of the month....because he doesn't complain and he's not a baby, and he gets the job done!
Sorry, I didn't really have much of a topic tonight. Just a proud mama moment. I've been thinking alot about him moving out in just two months...well, less than two months. And I think it'll be good for him. I'm still going to cry like a big baby and feel very sad about it, but I've raised a great kid who is responsible and is ready to go out on his own. I've always felt that I made alot of mistakes with the kids while they were growing up because I was a single mom for a long time. But when I look at him now, I just feel proud of him. How can I feel bad about that!
Today is Wednesday, so it's the last day of my work week. Thank goodness because I am so damn tired. It's been a long week and I'm glad it's done. I have a huge pile of laundry waiting for me downstairs and we thought someone was coming through the house tomorrow....but actually can't until next week. Dodged a bullet there! Jason's room.....well, he's a teenager. I think I've forgotten what color his carpet is because I haven't seen it in so long.
Speaking of Jason, I had a reason for bringing him up, when I got to work today I found out he was named employee of the month. Pretty cool! About 10% of our employees actually end up being named Employee of the Month. There are so many factors that have to come together to even be considered.....it's nuts. Mgt narrows it down to 3 movers and Jason happened to be one of them. I was so excited but I didn't want to let myself get too excited for him in case one of the other guys were chosen. Of course, I voted for Jason. Duh! But I laid out my reasons and they were valid. My boss agreed and one of our CSR's....and the Gen Mgr must have too because Jason was named EOM!
In our office, it's a respect thing. They get a special parking spot for the month, they get a gift card, and they get their photo with a certificate put up on the wall! And it stays there for a year. So, I was really proud of Jason. He just became a driver and I'm really proud of him. I couldn't do the work these guys do. Moving is hard physical work and I have so much respect for the guys I work with. They bust their asses for the company we work for.
Matter of fact, he got to work at 7:30 am and when I talked to him by text at 4:45pm, he and his mover were still at the load. Which means they were still at the "move from" address loading the truck. It's 9:30pm and he's still not home. I don't expect him home until probably midnight. I feel bad because he's supposed to be out by 5 because he has a 7:45am class tomorrow, but I think everything got crazy in the office with my co-worker being out for his father-in-law. So, I think the fact that Jason should be out by 5 got overlooked. He doesn't complain though. He just tells me that he's a man, he'll suck it up and get the job done. Well, that's why he is employee of the month....because he doesn't complain and he's not a baby, and he gets the job done!
Sorry, I didn't really have much of a topic tonight. Just a proud mama moment. I've been thinking alot about him moving out in just two months...well, less than two months. And I think it'll be good for him. I'm still going to cry like a big baby and feel very sad about it, but I've raised a great kid who is responsible and is ready to go out on his own. I've always felt that I made alot of mistakes with the kids while they were growing up because I was a single mom for a long time. But when I look at him now, I just feel proud of him. How can I feel bad about that!
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Time Of Your Life
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
One of my co-worker found out recently that his father-in-law has cancer. It was well progressed and even though he's not that old, for a Grandpa, the only treatment available to him would be aggressive and very painful. He chose not to take treatment, and today my co-worker was called home by his wife because his father-in-law had taken a turn for he worse.
I'm not close with this family, but my heart and prayers go out to them. This man is young at heart, and until his diagnosis with cancer had been running daily and even participated in marathons. Youthful at heart, God is calling him home soon.
This is why I posted the words to the Greenday song above. It's also in the music you'll hear while reading my blog. This song touches my heart because that is what life is really about. If your life is long-lived or if someone is here for just a short time, enjoying that life is what is important. Love, family, friendship....all so important.
Look for happiness, be true to yourself, be a good friend, love your family with all your heart, and always try to do the right thing. Not always easy! And I'm not saying that I have a grip on all of this but it's a life process. I'm working really hard right now to make sure that I don't have regrets as I get older. Well, we all have regrets, but I'm working harder on making the right decision and to make sure that I'm a good mom and a good wife. That's what life is about for me.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
One of my co-worker found out recently that his father-in-law has cancer. It was well progressed and even though he's not that old, for a Grandpa, the only treatment available to him would be aggressive and very painful. He chose not to take treatment, and today my co-worker was called home by his wife because his father-in-law had taken a turn for he worse.
I'm not close with this family, but my heart and prayers go out to them. This man is young at heart, and until his diagnosis with cancer had been running daily and even participated in marathons. Youthful at heart, God is calling him home soon.
This is why I posted the words to the Greenday song above. It's also in the music you'll hear while reading my blog. This song touches my heart because that is what life is really about. If your life is long-lived or if someone is here for just a short time, enjoying that life is what is important. Love, family, friendship....all so important.
Look for happiness, be true to yourself, be a good friend, love your family with all your heart, and always try to do the right thing. Not always easy! And I'm not saying that I have a grip on all of this but it's a life process. I'm working really hard right now to make sure that I don't have regrets as I get older. Well, we all have regrets, but I'm working harder on making the right decision and to make sure that I'm a good mom and a good wife. That's what life is about for me.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Relaxation In A Makeover?
I love to shop. Maybe that's why Christmas is my favorite holiday? I don't believe it's just that, I love decorating, I love Christmas movies and Christmas music. And I love to shop and buy presents for my kids and for Scott. I love picking out a Christmas tree and decorating it.
Scott and I were talking about Christmas trees the other day. We realized that last year, knock on wood, was the very first year that our tree didn't tip over....always after it had been decorated of course. Talk about traumatic. Alot of my favorite glass ornaments have been broken over the years from our tree tipping over. But last year, we were lucky and must have gotten it just right. Keep your fingers crossed for me this year.
You might think it's crazy, but in a week or two I'll start getting out my Christmas Villages out. It takes so much time to put them out and to get them set up just right, that I don't want them set up for just a month. I LOVE them! I think I've mentioned before, my favorite is my ice skaters. Once I get it up and running, I'll post a video. I know you're just going crazy waiting to see it, lol.
Hold on....I'm being paged by my daughter for a mom and daughter talk.
Now, on to my topic....I've been watching HSN. I ordered some Christmas presents off QVC last week, and some from the CBS Sports store (Buckeye stuff). I started watching HSN forever ago because I like to shop, I don't buy much from the TV, but I like to window shop....so to speak. All of the sudden, I happened across a show on Signature Club with Adrienne. She sells make up and skin care products and I realized that watching them put makeup on their models, in an effort to sell the makeup, of course, it was so relaxing to me.
It's like getting a message or aromatherapy. Or like my CD that plays a thunderstorm. Is that weird? I could spend house looking at people getting makeovers, then seeing the before and after. Maybe it's Adrienne's voice? It's a little nasally....like Fran on The Nanny, lol.
I LOVE aromatherapy. I remember going to the chiropractor one time, Dr. Tuthill when he was still in business. I remember going upstairs to one of the rooms and laying on the table thing and he asked me about the scent in the room. He said he was trying out something new, aromatherapy. Seriously, it made me feel like jello. It was my first experience with aromatherapy and I LOVED IT! It totally affected my mood and it relaxed me to the point of goo!
I have a ceramic light bult ring that I put oil in sometimes. I like lavendar and gardenia. Rose is nice too, very mellow. Sometimes I like a scent with a little bit of a masculine scent. Speaking of that, Scott's cologne that he wears makes me the same way. He doesn't wear it often, special occassions usually, but he smells so damn good. I know he does it on purpose. All I do is hug him and hug him with my nose stuck to his neck or his chest....just breathing in. I could stand there for an hour just smelling his neck or chest...breathe in...breathe out....breathe in....breathe out.....
My poor sister is seriously allergic to alot of this kind of stuff. I feel bad because I always have yummy smelling candles burning, and tart warmers, and I have the little thing that looks like a mini-crock pot, but you put liquid potpourri in it. I try to be careful when she's coming over not to use anything too floral scented.
But for me, I guess I'm an odd ball. I could watch women on TV all day getting make overs. It just relaxes me...I go into a trace. Jourdan saw it tonight....you can ask her. Then you get some aromatherapy going on....I'm putty!
An odd thing to share tonight, but I've been watching HSN tonight. I seek out the makeup shows. Well, the Christmas decoration ones too. I watched QVC for a couple hours last week because they were selling battery operated lit up Christmas swags, lol. Maybe I need therapy.
Wait, I'm already in therapy, lol. Guess I have a whole new box to open up.
Scott and I were talking about Christmas trees the other day. We realized that last year, knock on wood, was the very first year that our tree didn't tip over....always after it had been decorated of course. Talk about traumatic. Alot of my favorite glass ornaments have been broken over the years from our tree tipping over. But last year, we were lucky and must have gotten it just right. Keep your fingers crossed for me this year.
You might think it's crazy, but in a week or two I'll start getting out my Christmas Villages out. It takes so much time to put them out and to get them set up just right, that I don't want them set up for just a month. I LOVE them! I think I've mentioned before, my favorite is my ice skaters. Once I get it up and running, I'll post a video. I know you're just going crazy waiting to see it, lol.
Hold on....I'm being paged by my daughter for a mom and daughter talk.
Now, on to my topic....I've been watching HSN. I ordered some Christmas presents off QVC last week, and some from the CBS Sports store (Buckeye stuff). I started watching HSN forever ago because I like to shop, I don't buy much from the TV, but I like to window shop....so to speak. All of the sudden, I happened across a show on Signature Club with Adrienne. She sells make up and skin care products and I realized that watching them put makeup on their models, in an effort to sell the makeup, of course, it was so relaxing to me.
It's like getting a message or aromatherapy. Or like my CD that plays a thunderstorm. Is that weird? I could spend house looking at people getting makeovers, then seeing the before and after. Maybe it's Adrienne's voice? It's a little nasally....like Fran on The Nanny, lol.
I LOVE aromatherapy. I remember going to the chiropractor one time, Dr. Tuthill when he was still in business. I remember going upstairs to one of the rooms and laying on the table thing and he asked me about the scent in the room. He said he was trying out something new, aromatherapy. Seriously, it made me feel like jello. It was my first experience with aromatherapy and I LOVED IT! It totally affected my mood and it relaxed me to the point of goo!
I have a ceramic light bult ring that I put oil in sometimes. I like lavendar and gardenia. Rose is nice too, very mellow. Sometimes I like a scent with a little bit of a masculine scent. Speaking of that, Scott's cologne that he wears makes me the same way. He doesn't wear it often, special occassions usually, but he smells so damn good. I know he does it on purpose. All I do is hug him and hug him with my nose stuck to his neck or his chest....just breathing in. I could stand there for an hour just smelling his neck or chest...breathe in...breathe out....breathe in....breathe out.....
My poor sister is seriously allergic to alot of this kind of stuff. I feel bad because I always have yummy smelling candles burning, and tart warmers, and I have the little thing that looks like a mini-crock pot, but you put liquid potpourri in it. I try to be careful when she's coming over not to use anything too floral scented.
But for me, I guess I'm an odd ball. I could watch women on TV all day getting make overs. It just relaxes me...I go into a trace. Jourdan saw it tonight....you can ask her. Then you get some aromatherapy going on....I'm putty!
An odd thing to share tonight, but I've been watching HSN tonight. I seek out the makeup shows. Well, the Christmas decoration ones too. I watched QVC for a couple hours last week because they were selling battery operated lit up Christmas swags, lol. Maybe I need therapy.
Wait, I'm already in therapy, lol. Guess I have a whole new box to open up.
Friday, November 5, 2010
First Snow
Today is Friday! Friday's are great, for most people. Around my house, I have Thursday and Fridays off but Scott works on Saturday. So, it really doesn't feel like Friday. But that's ok. I had a very productive day.
Last night I got my gun socks and toothfairy pillows listed on Ebay. I think I might put them on Craigslist too. If I had bee thinking ahead, I would have signed up for Christmas Through Lowell. Did I already talk about that? There are oodles and oodles of homes that sign up and have craft sales over an entire weekend in and around Lowell. It's quite a big deal. Some people are way overpriced. Some people have good prices.
The problem with crafts, typically, are that they are very labor intensive. And, people think that they should be properly compensated for the number of hours they put into their crafts. So, they have really high prices on their crafts.
The way I approach it, I look at how much it cost me to make a particular item and then I add a little bit for my time. I would LOVE to make a bunch of money doing crafts but you aren't going to get rich doing it. Unless you start making alot and maybe even open up an Ebay store.
Someone I know, who lives in Lowell, has an Ebay store and makes a butt-load of money selling in his Ebay store. This isn't a friend. It's just someone I know, but they sell alot of stuff on Ebay and that's their income. I would like to do the same someday. Find a way to make money at home, but not on my back, LOL just kidding.
Well, I won't ramble on and on today...as I have the last few posts. I had a pretty great day. I got caught up on my housework. There is nothing more satisfying than having the house spotless when the kids and Scott get home after being gone all day. I swept, mopped, dusted, cleaned, did laundry....EVERYTHING to make this house look fantastic! Jourdan told me it smelled so good when she came in the door. I've had candles burning all day too. I got some really yummy smelling candles for my birthday.
Have I ever mentioned I'm a candle junkie? I had an Autumn Apple and Pumpkin Pecan Pie burning today. They smelled so good. And then in my little tart warmer I had "Festival of Lights" going. It's just a really nice Christmasy smell. My house smelled like the holidays today.
I love that. Every year, about the beginning of November I break out these yummy smelling candles and Scott always says that "it smells like Christmas in here". I love that smell. I usually do cinnamon stick scented candles, sugar cookie, Christmas tree, etc. It just smells like the holidays, and Christmas is my FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR!
I get a little insane at Christmas. Happy insane. I love Christmas shopping, I love wrapping presents, I love putting up decorations, I love everything about Christmas.
Ok, I lied, maybe I do have more to say than just a couple of sentences. I was talking about my Grandpa the other day, and it's got me thinking about other childhood memories. My two best memories involve Christmas and my Grandparents. While my parents weren't perfect, an no parents are, we always had great Christmas traditions. I think that's where my love of the Christmas holiday comes from. My parents made it so special for us as kids.
I remember like it was yesterday, going to my Grandparents house on Christmas Eve, the drive home looking for Rudolph. And when we got home we kept the lights out, only lighting the tree and some candles. I had to have been 4 or 5 years old, and I remember exactly what our livingroom looked like and our Christmas tree. I remember looking out the front picture window and seeing all the snow. It's a warm memory and a happy memory that I'll remember for my entire life.
I've tried really hard to make these types of memories for my kids. We do alot of baking for Christmas. We make probably 10 different kinds of cookies and bars and goodies. I totally decorate the inside of my house. Sami is going to really love it this year! I know that I have disappointed Jason with his gifts the last two years. Makes me feel REALLY bad. Seriously, I feel really bad about it. He's so hard to buy for and I didn't do a good job the last couple years. Hopefully, I'll do better this year.
I'm not going to focus on that, it upsets me. And today, I feel too good to get upset over something I cannot change. I can only improve in the future, and I will.
Today, we had our first snow. It didn't stay, but I went into the kitchen for a cup of coffee and my truck was white with snow. It snowed off and on all day...sometimes heavy and sometimes light. I loved it. I don't mind the snow right now. I know that people bitch, but I don't mind it. It makes me feel all in the mood for the holidays. However, once New Years is done....the snow can go bye bye!
So that was my day. I did watch "50 first Dates" with Jourdan and a special on Taylor Swift. A little mom and chicky time. Was good, mom's and daughters need that! So I had a really good day and I'm thankful for such a great family!
Last night I got my gun socks and toothfairy pillows listed on Ebay. I think I might put them on Craigslist too. If I had bee thinking ahead, I would have signed up for Christmas Through Lowell. Did I already talk about that? There are oodles and oodles of homes that sign up and have craft sales over an entire weekend in and around Lowell. It's quite a big deal. Some people are way overpriced. Some people have good prices.
The problem with crafts, typically, are that they are very labor intensive. And, people think that they should be properly compensated for the number of hours they put into their crafts. So, they have really high prices on their crafts.
The way I approach it, I look at how much it cost me to make a particular item and then I add a little bit for my time. I would LOVE to make a bunch of money doing crafts but you aren't going to get rich doing it. Unless you start making alot and maybe even open up an Ebay store.
Someone I know, who lives in Lowell, has an Ebay store and makes a butt-load of money selling in his Ebay store. This isn't a friend. It's just someone I know, but they sell alot of stuff on Ebay and that's their income. I would like to do the same someday. Find a way to make money at home, but not on my back, LOL just kidding.
Well, I won't ramble on and on today...as I have the last few posts. I had a pretty great day. I got caught up on my housework. There is nothing more satisfying than having the house spotless when the kids and Scott get home after being gone all day. I swept, mopped, dusted, cleaned, did laundry....EVERYTHING to make this house look fantastic! Jourdan told me it smelled so good when she came in the door. I've had candles burning all day too. I got some really yummy smelling candles for my birthday.
Have I ever mentioned I'm a candle junkie? I had an Autumn Apple and Pumpkin Pecan Pie burning today. They smelled so good. And then in my little tart warmer I had "Festival of Lights" going. It's just a really nice Christmasy smell. My house smelled like the holidays today.
I love that. Every year, about the beginning of November I break out these yummy smelling candles and Scott always says that "it smells like Christmas in here". I love that smell. I usually do cinnamon stick scented candles, sugar cookie, Christmas tree, etc. It just smells like the holidays, and Christmas is my FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR!
I get a little insane at Christmas. Happy insane. I love Christmas shopping, I love wrapping presents, I love putting up decorations, I love everything about Christmas.
Ok, I lied, maybe I do have more to say than just a couple of sentences. I was talking about my Grandpa the other day, and it's got me thinking about other childhood memories. My two best memories involve Christmas and my Grandparents. While my parents weren't perfect, an no parents are, we always had great Christmas traditions. I think that's where my love of the Christmas holiday comes from. My parents made it so special for us as kids.
I remember like it was yesterday, going to my Grandparents house on Christmas Eve, the drive home looking for Rudolph. And when we got home we kept the lights out, only lighting the tree and some candles. I had to have been 4 or 5 years old, and I remember exactly what our livingroom looked like and our Christmas tree. I remember looking out the front picture window and seeing all the snow. It's a warm memory and a happy memory that I'll remember for my entire life.
I've tried really hard to make these types of memories for my kids. We do alot of baking for Christmas. We make probably 10 different kinds of cookies and bars and goodies. I totally decorate the inside of my house. Sami is going to really love it this year! I know that I have disappointed Jason with his gifts the last two years. Makes me feel REALLY bad. Seriously, I feel really bad about it. He's so hard to buy for and I didn't do a good job the last couple years. Hopefully, I'll do better this year.
I'm not going to focus on that, it upsets me. And today, I feel too good to get upset over something I cannot change. I can only improve in the future, and I will.
Today, we had our first snow. It didn't stay, but I went into the kitchen for a cup of coffee and my truck was white with snow. It snowed off and on all day...sometimes heavy and sometimes light. I loved it. I don't mind the snow right now. I know that people bitch, but I don't mind it. It makes me feel all in the mood for the holidays. However, once New Years is done....the snow can go bye bye!
So that was my day. I did watch "50 first Dates" with Jourdan and a special on Taylor Swift. A little mom and chicky time. Was good, mom's and daughters need that! So I had a really good day and I'm thankful for such a great family!
Thursday, November 4, 2010
What Are You Thankful For?
My friend Stacy posted on her Facebook that she was going to post something each day in November that she is thankful for. After all, Thanksgiving is just around the corner. So I'm going to do the same thing, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm finding that I have so many things to be thankful for, some that I've taken for granted.
I've been thinking alot about my life lately. My family and my friends! And about what's really important to me. I think turning 40 does that to you.....and smacks you even harder when you hit 41. Remember when 41 seemed ancient? Doesn't feel ancient now, not from where I'm sitting. What it does feel like....reality smacking me in the face.
My oldest son Jason just turned 18 years old. He's going to college and in two month's he'll move onto campus at Aquinas College. I'm really struggling with that. He knows it and I know it, but I'm doing my best to be supportive and positive.
I've said before that Jason works for the same company that I do. When I got to my office today I discovered that Jason wasn't a mover today, but a driver. And in our office and our industry, it's a really big deal! That means he was out driving the big 26 ft moving truck. He went to Secretary of State and got his Chauffer license, got his DOT card, and his road test. I want him to be 8 years old, but he's grown up. I'm really proud of him! He's a good kid and he is more responsible than many of our older employees.
Anyhow, when I got to work and discovered he was driving, I was really proud of him. It's alot of responsibility and he did a great job today. I got to talk to him a few minutes after his last job and he said things went really good. I wanted to make a big deal about it, but I didn't want to embarrass him....but I'm so damn proud of him!
You know, I was thinking about my Grandpa Condon today. I have the best memories of my Grandpa. He lives in a nursing home now and I can barely force myself to go visit him. I know, it incredibly selfish! I have these memories of my Grandpa and to see the way he is now, all I can do the whole time I am there is hold back tears, and then I cry all the way home! He doesn't know who we are when we go to visit and his mind isn't really there.
How terrible am I for not wanting to remember him that way, but the way that I do from only a couple years ago all the way back to my ealiest childhood memories? It's shameful. I pray that God is watching over him and that he is at peace. I don't know when it will be his time to go, but I pray that he is at peace.
I love my Grandpa. It's painful for me to see him that way. I don't want to regret that I didn't go see him as often as I should. I need to go and see him because it's been a while.
My grandpa has been the BEST grandpa. No kid could ask for a better grandpa. My grandparents lived on Weber St. right off the E. Beltline in Grand Rapids. At the time, it was living in the country. He had a huge garden, and we loved walking up the big hill because at the top was his potato garden. We always thought it was cool that you could see the E. Beltline from there.
I don't think that Jamie was born yet so she probably doesn't have these early memories of my grandparents place, but I know Tina does. Grandpa had a tire swing in one tree, some kind of disk swing in another tree, a swingset, and a hammock hung between two trees. We spent more time with our cousins swinging each other and trying to flip the other one out of that hammock. I mean, we spent hours playing out there.
And Grandma had a clothes line. It was HUGE. On both ends were metal bars that were cemented into the ground, but also went across the top. I remember asking my dad at least a hundred times whenever we would visit to lift me up so I could hang from the top bar of the clothes line. I wasn't tall enough to reach, but I would hang there until my arms couldn't stand it anymore, then I'd drop down and beg my dad to put me back up there.
Grandpa had bikes and big wheels, wagons, and anything else a kid would love. I remember there was quite a long sidewalk between the house and the garage. The side garage door would be open and the big overhead door would be open and I remember blazing a trail with my big wheel from the porch steps...down the sidewalk, into the garage...where I would make a huge loop and out the front door, through the grass back onto the sidewalk and up to the steps. I would make this loop over and over and over.
There was always something fun to do at Grandma and Grandpa's. My parents took us there every single weekend when we were kids. It's some of my best memories. I remember what their house looked like so vividly. I remember sitting in front of the TV when Grandpa would have Lawrence Welk on. I loved their house. I've even had several dreams about being at their house, I was an adult in my dreams, but they were there.
In Grandma's bedroom, there was a closet door that led to the attic. It had a winding staircase and the attic was tall enough that an adult could walk around up there. I remember going up there with Tina and we would look for old treasures. We were sure there was treasure up there, because it was so cool! I even remember what my Grandma's room looked like!
When we were young, we went to Grandpa and Grandma's every year on Christmas Eve. All the way home, Tina and I would stare out the window knowing for sure that we would see Rudolph's nose in the sky.
There are so many great memories I have with my Grandparents. My Grandma died when I was 19 and that was really hard on me. I miss her alot. You couldn't go to her house without eating something. She always had a bowl of baby red potatoes in the fridge, boiled, and ready to be sliced and fried for dinner. She always had those donuts that are crescent shaped and have glaze and nuts on them. She would love Scott. I hope that she can see us from Heaven because she was gone before any of her grandkids had kids of their own. I was the oldest and I'd just gotten married to my mistake....I mean, Paul.
I was on my way to my therapy appt this morning and I started thinking about my Grandpa, and I started to cry. I have all these great memories and it makes me so incredibly sad that my kids have never experienced that with any of their grandparents. Scott's parents both passed away when they were young. Paul's dad passed away from cancer back when I was pregnant for John....so about 8 years ago. Paul's mom was never the type to call and have the kids over, although I ran into her at Meijer not long ago and she nearly cried when she saw Jourdan. She hadn't seen her in a while and couldn't believe how big she'd gotten. It made me feel bad because we live so close to her. That same week, Jourdan took the kids on a bike ride and they stopped to visit her. She really loved seeing John and Sami too, which was nice of her. I think Sami reminds her of Jourdan when she was that age.
And, you know the deal with my parents. I've talked about it before. They aren't your typical grandparents and I'll say again, it makes me so incredibly sad. My parents are young grandparents and it breaks my heart that they aren't taking advantage of time that they could be spending with their grandkids.
Dr. Winters told me that when you have parents like mine, by the time they get to be grandparents...they usually start to get it. And then they become wonderful grandparents. She said that not all parents come around like that, and I think that's the category that my parents fall into. I've wanted to talk to my mom about this for the longest time. Dr. Winters told me that it won't change anything, and it could make things even more stressful between us. I believe her, but I also feel like I need to get it off my chest.
I'm the type of person that when something is bothering me, I need to take care of it RIGHT NOW! If Scott and I are fighting, I have to fix it right now. So, I've wanted to talk to my mom for...probably years. But it's become more and more important the last year or so. I told her that today. My concern is that she will take it as an attack and when I've tried to talk to her in the past, she gets defensive. And then she starts saying mean stuff about the way I am raising my kids and slamming on me. In a nutshell, it gets turned around on me.
I never said I was perfect. I'm human, I make mistakes! I feel like I have tried to do what's best for my kids at every turn. I love my kids and would give my life for each of them. I know I've make mistakes, kids don't come with an instruction manual so I did the best I could. I also know that I am going to be a different type of grandparent. I'm going to be there for my kids when they need me. I'm going to spoil my grandkids rotten and I'm going to call them up and invite them to come stay the night with us. Then, we'll do fun things. Movies, baking cookies, whatever their interests, I'm going to be there and be supportive of my kids and my grandkids. I'm going to be like my Grandpa. He wasn't always perfect either, but as I sit here right now....I sure have alot of great memories that he helped create. That's all a person can ask for.
I've been thinking alot about my life lately. My family and my friends! And about what's really important to me. I think turning 40 does that to you.....and smacks you even harder when you hit 41. Remember when 41 seemed ancient? Doesn't feel ancient now, not from where I'm sitting. What it does feel like....reality smacking me in the face.
My oldest son Jason just turned 18 years old. He's going to college and in two month's he'll move onto campus at Aquinas College. I'm really struggling with that. He knows it and I know it, but I'm doing my best to be supportive and positive.
I've said before that Jason works for the same company that I do. When I got to my office today I discovered that Jason wasn't a mover today, but a driver. And in our office and our industry, it's a really big deal! That means he was out driving the big 26 ft moving truck. He went to Secretary of State and got his Chauffer license, got his DOT card, and his road test. I want him to be 8 years old, but he's grown up. I'm really proud of him! He's a good kid and he is more responsible than many of our older employees.
Anyhow, when I got to work and discovered he was driving, I was really proud of him. It's alot of responsibility and he did a great job today. I got to talk to him a few minutes after his last job and he said things went really good. I wanted to make a big deal about it, but I didn't want to embarrass him....but I'm so damn proud of him!
You know, I was thinking about my Grandpa Condon today. I have the best memories of my Grandpa. He lives in a nursing home now and I can barely force myself to go visit him. I know, it incredibly selfish! I have these memories of my Grandpa and to see the way he is now, all I can do the whole time I am there is hold back tears, and then I cry all the way home! He doesn't know who we are when we go to visit and his mind isn't really there.
How terrible am I for not wanting to remember him that way, but the way that I do from only a couple years ago all the way back to my ealiest childhood memories? It's shameful. I pray that God is watching over him and that he is at peace. I don't know when it will be his time to go, but I pray that he is at peace.
I love my Grandpa. It's painful for me to see him that way. I don't want to regret that I didn't go see him as often as I should. I need to go and see him because it's been a while.
My grandpa has been the BEST grandpa. No kid could ask for a better grandpa. My grandparents lived on Weber St. right off the E. Beltline in Grand Rapids. At the time, it was living in the country. He had a huge garden, and we loved walking up the big hill because at the top was his potato garden. We always thought it was cool that you could see the E. Beltline from there.
I don't think that Jamie was born yet so she probably doesn't have these early memories of my grandparents place, but I know Tina does. Grandpa had a tire swing in one tree, some kind of disk swing in another tree, a swingset, and a hammock hung between two trees. We spent more time with our cousins swinging each other and trying to flip the other one out of that hammock. I mean, we spent hours playing out there.
And Grandma had a clothes line. It was HUGE. On both ends were metal bars that were cemented into the ground, but also went across the top. I remember asking my dad at least a hundred times whenever we would visit to lift me up so I could hang from the top bar of the clothes line. I wasn't tall enough to reach, but I would hang there until my arms couldn't stand it anymore, then I'd drop down and beg my dad to put me back up there.
Grandpa had bikes and big wheels, wagons, and anything else a kid would love. I remember there was quite a long sidewalk between the house and the garage. The side garage door would be open and the big overhead door would be open and I remember blazing a trail with my big wheel from the porch steps...down the sidewalk, into the garage...where I would make a huge loop and out the front door, through the grass back onto the sidewalk and up to the steps. I would make this loop over and over and over.
There was always something fun to do at Grandma and Grandpa's. My parents took us there every single weekend when we were kids. It's some of my best memories. I remember what their house looked like so vividly. I remember sitting in front of the TV when Grandpa would have Lawrence Welk on. I loved their house. I've even had several dreams about being at their house, I was an adult in my dreams, but they were there.
In Grandma's bedroom, there was a closet door that led to the attic. It had a winding staircase and the attic was tall enough that an adult could walk around up there. I remember going up there with Tina and we would look for old treasures. We were sure there was treasure up there, because it was so cool! I even remember what my Grandma's room looked like!
When we were young, we went to Grandpa and Grandma's every year on Christmas Eve. All the way home, Tina and I would stare out the window knowing for sure that we would see Rudolph's nose in the sky.
There are so many great memories I have with my Grandparents. My Grandma died when I was 19 and that was really hard on me. I miss her alot. You couldn't go to her house without eating something. She always had a bowl of baby red potatoes in the fridge, boiled, and ready to be sliced and fried for dinner. She always had those donuts that are crescent shaped and have glaze and nuts on them. She would love Scott. I hope that she can see us from Heaven because she was gone before any of her grandkids had kids of their own. I was the oldest and I'd just gotten married to my mistake....I mean, Paul.
I was on my way to my therapy appt this morning and I started thinking about my Grandpa, and I started to cry. I have all these great memories and it makes me so incredibly sad that my kids have never experienced that with any of their grandparents. Scott's parents both passed away when they were young. Paul's dad passed away from cancer back when I was pregnant for John....so about 8 years ago. Paul's mom was never the type to call and have the kids over, although I ran into her at Meijer not long ago and she nearly cried when she saw Jourdan. She hadn't seen her in a while and couldn't believe how big she'd gotten. It made me feel bad because we live so close to her. That same week, Jourdan took the kids on a bike ride and they stopped to visit her. She really loved seeing John and Sami too, which was nice of her. I think Sami reminds her of Jourdan when she was that age.
And, you know the deal with my parents. I've talked about it before. They aren't your typical grandparents and I'll say again, it makes me so incredibly sad. My parents are young grandparents and it breaks my heart that they aren't taking advantage of time that they could be spending with their grandkids.
Dr. Winters told me that when you have parents like mine, by the time they get to be grandparents...they usually start to get it. And then they become wonderful grandparents. She said that not all parents come around like that, and I think that's the category that my parents fall into. I've wanted to talk to my mom about this for the longest time. Dr. Winters told me that it won't change anything, and it could make things even more stressful between us. I believe her, but I also feel like I need to get it off my chest.
I'm the type of person that when something is bothering me, I need to take care of it RIGHT NOW! If Scott and I are fighting, I have to fix it right now. So, I've wanted to talk to my mom for...probably years. But it's become more and more important the last year or so. I told her that today. My concern is that she will take it as an attack and when I've tried to talk to her in the past, she gets defensive. And then she starts saying mean stuff about the way I am raising my kids and slamming on me. In a nutshell, it gets turned around on me.
I never said I was perfect. I'm human, I make mistakes! I feel like I have tried to do what's best for my kids at every turn. I love my kids and would give my life for each of them. I know I've make mistakes, kids don't come with an instruction manual so I did the best I could. I also know that I am going to be a different type of grandparent. I'm going to be there for my kids when they need me. I'm going to spoil my grandkids rotten and I'm going to call them up and invite them to come stay the night with us. Then, we'll do fun things. Movies, baking cookies, whatever their interests, I'm going to be there and be supportive of my kids and my grandkids. I'm going to be like my Grandpa. He wasn't always perfect either, but as I sit here right now....I sure have alot of great memories that he helped create. That's all a person can ask for.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Tomorrow's The Big Day
I'm in RED tonight because I want to put out good vibes for the conservatives who are running for office during elections tomorrow.
I had something completely different in mind for my post tonight. I think I'll save it for tomorrow night.
I think the first time that I really understood how divided the Country is was when George Bush was running against Al Gore. I mean, we were talking about 50/50 Republicans and Dems. I kept thinking to myself, "how the hell can there be that many stupid people in the United States?" I know, that's really rude. My apologies.
I think that people have forgotten how our Government works here in the United States. I've said this on my facebook page already. Are you old enough to remember School House Rock?
School House Rock: I'm Only A Bill
I know that the Republican's are not innocent in our financial mess. I feel that President Bush did make some mistakes, but I also believe with all my heart, that he woke up each morning and prayed for guidance on how to take care of this great Country we live in. I don't think he had a crazy ultra-conservative agenda when he took office. I think he wanted to make a difference and to make our Country even more wonderful. And I'm sure he feels he made mistakes, but felt like he was making decisions that were in the best interest of our country.....not for his own personal interest, but for that of our County.
I also know that Democrats have been in control of Congress since 2006. If you watch the video I just posted you will realize that the House of Representatives and the Senate hold all the power. What's been going on for the past two years is our Democrat led Congress has been pushing forward with Democrat President Obama's liberal agenda.
I want to remind you, while the liberals are blaming President Bush for the terrible unemployment and debt that he has a Democrat congress to deal with the last two years of his presidency. Wasn't it during those last two years that things got really bad? I know it did for us. Scott's overtime went away, and it was terrible for us for a long time with our budget. We could barely afford to buy groceries, and that is no lie.
To keep our nation free and democratic (no Democrat) there are checks and balances in place. We have Congress, the President and the Supreme Court. Checks and balances to ensure our freedom. And elections every two years to ensure we don't get stuck with politicians who aren't looking out for the best interests of the people he or she represents.
Tomorrow, I think the Republican's are going to spank the Democrats. There are so many politicians out there who are NOT listening to the people they represent. For those of you who don't have health insurance, I know that Obamacare probably sounds like a great thing. But when you really listen to the different things that are in this bill, remember how big it is? When you really dig into it and listen to the things that are in this bill, it's scarier than hell. What if you get really sick? Do you want some government agency looking at your file, without any compassion, and deciding whether or not they want to put the money into saving your life? Who's to decide what is best for you and your health? You and your family.....or the federal government? I know what my choice would be.
Also, as a nation we are facing the largest tax increase in our history beginning in January, 2011. Yes, I'm speaking of the Bush tax cuts. I don't see them as Bush tax cuts. This is how I see them. They eliminated the "marriage tax penalty". That means married folks are going to get less of a standard deduction than two single filers would get. That is a penalty.
Also, the child tax credit goes away. For those of us who count on the extra help of the child tax credit, we are screwed!
Democrats put two things out there regarding the Bush tax cuts. First, they said that they didn't want to help the rich. They only wanted to keep the tax cuts for the middle class. Now, I may be wrong, but I think the cut-off was $250,000 and above would lose their tax cuts. I know that seams like a HUGE amount of money. But when you consider those people out there who own small businesses, they are going to get royally screwed. When Scott and I owned our business, it was set up as an LLC. That meant that the profit and losses of our business directly flowed to our personal tax returns.
What am I getting at? These small business owners are the ones who are giving people jobs. My boss is a small business owner. Higher taxes leave less money for hiring new people. I'm a bookkeeper, I know what I'm talking about. When small business owners are taxed to death, it leaves no money to expand their businesses and hire new people.
My last point on this, Democrats blamed the Republicans for not getting an extension of the Bush Tax Credits passed before they left in August. Excuse me, Democrat majority in the House and Senate! You don't need the Republican's to pass ANYTHING! You have the majority.
Ask yourself this. Over the last four years, during the Democrat led Congress, has your financial situation gotten better or worse? Have you been looking for a job? If yes, were you able to find a good paying job? Have you been able to keep your job you already have, or have your hours been cut? And how many of you have lost your homes to foreclosure under the Democrat led Congress?
Michigan has one of the highest unemployment rates and foreclosure rates in the United States. How can we even consider letting the Democrats run this state, or any other state, for another two years.
I firmly believe that President Obama is going to be a one-term President. Honestly, I think he knows it. That's why he was pushing is far-left liberal agenda while he had both houses of Congress. It was the only way to get these extreme left agendas passed.
I have to be careful here. There are Democrats and Republicans that are close to the center. There are democrats who really are listening to the people that they represent. It is my hope that people will actually listen and do research on the people they are voting for. I pray that they will vote their conscience and vote for the person who most represents their own feelings and observations.
I think that the American people want Congress to stop the excessive spending, get the damn budget under control, get rid of Obamacare, stop handing out welfare checks and 99 weeks of unemployment checks. You can't tell me that any self-respecting adult would rather sit on his ass and get a welfare check in the mail than go out and get a job that he can earn a good wage and benefits and be able to support his family. I know that most people are good inside and we've gotten so used to standing there with their hands out.
I have a fantastic friend who has made alot of changes in her life, all in the effort to improve life for her children and herself. She wants to work, she wants to find her dream job, earn a good wage, buy a new home for herself and her kids. We need people in Washington who are going to help her do that, and every other hard-working American. Think about all these things as you go to vote tomorrow.
Jason just turned 18 and this is the first election he gets to vote in. I'm so excited for him, because it's such an important thing to do as an American, yet we take it for granted. Men and Women died for the right to vote. I remember when I turned 18 I got to vote in 1988 and I voted for President Reagan. It was so exciting to be able to vote, and I'm glad that Jason gets to take part tomorrow.
And if you are looking at your non-partisan portion of your ballot, it doesn't mean they are non-partisan. Do the research and see if they are liberal or conservative judges, and then go with your gut.
I had something completely different in mind for my post tonight. I think I'll save it for tomorrow night.
I think the first time that I really understood how divided the Country is was when George Bush was running against Al Gore. I mean, we were talking about 50/50 Republicans and Dems. I kept thinking to myself, "how the hell can there be that many stupid people in the United States?" I know, that's really rude. My apologies.
I think that people have forgotten how our Government works here in the United States. I've said this on my facebook page already. Are you old enough to remember School House Rock?
School House Rock: I'm Only A Bill
I know that the Republican's are not innocent in our financial mess. I feel that President Bush did make some mistakes, but I also believe with all my heart, that he woke up each morning and prayed for guidance on how to take care of this great Country we live in. I don't think he had a crazy ultra-conservative agenda when he took office. I think he wanted to make a difference and to make our Country even more wonderful. And I'm sure he feels he made mistakes, but felt like he was making decisions that were in the best interest of our country.....not for his own personal interest, but for that of our County.
I also know that Democrats have been in control of Congress since 2006. If you watch the video I just posted you will realize that the House of Representatives and the Senate hold all the power. What's been going on for the past two years is our Democrat led Congress has been pushing forward with Democrat President Obama's liberal agenda.
I want to remind you, while the liberals are blaming President Bush for the terrible unemployment and debt that he has a Democrat congress to deal with the last two years of his presidency. Wasn't it during those last two years that things got really bad? I know it did for us. Scott's overtime went away, and it was terrible for us for a long time with our budget. We could barely afford to buy groceries, and that is no lie.
To keep our nation free and democratic (no Democrat) there are checks and balances in place. We have Congress, the President and the Supreme Court. Checks and balances to ensure our freedom. And elections every two years to ensure we don't get stuck with politicians who aren't looking out for the best interests of the people he or she represents.
Tomorrow, I think the Republican's are going to spank the Democrats. There are so many politicians out there who are NOT listening to the people they represent. For those of you who don't have health insurance, I know that Obamacare probably sounds like a great thing. But when you really listen to the different things that are in this bill, remember how big it is? When you really dig into it and listen to the things that are in this bill, it's scarier than hell. What if you get really sick? Do you want some government agency looking at your file, without any compassion, and deciding whether or not they want to put the money into saving your life? Who's to decide what is best for you and your health? You and your family.....or the federal government? I know what my choice would be.
Also, as a nation we are facing the largest tax increase in our history beginning in January, 2011. Yes, I'm speaking of the Bush tax cuts. I don't see them as Bush tax cuts. This is how I see them. They eliminated the "marriage tax penalty". That means married folks are going to get less of a standard deduction than two single filers would get. That is a penalty.
Also, the child tax credit goes away. For those of us who count on the extra help of the child tax credit, we are screwed!
Democrats put two things out there regarding the Bush tax cuts. First, they said that they didn't want to help the rich. They only wanted to keep the tax cuts for the middle class. Now, I may be wrong, but I think the cut-off was $250,000 and above would lose their tax cuts. I know that seams like a HUGE amount of money. But when you consider those people out there who own small businesses, they are going to get royally screwed. When Scott and I owned our business, it was set up as an LLC. That meant that the profit and losses of our business directly flowed to our personal tax returns.
What am I getting at? These small business owners are the ones who are giving people jobs. My boss is a small business owner. Higher taxes leave less money for hiring new people. I'm a bookkeeper, I know what I'm talking about. When small business owners are taxed to death, it leaves no money to expand their businesses and hire new people.
My last point on this, Democrats blamed the Republicans for not getting an extension of the Bush Tax Credits passed before they left in August. Excuse me, Democrat majority in the House and Senate! You don't need the Republican's to pass ANYTHING! You have the majority.
Ask yourself this. Over the last four years, during the Democrat led Congress, has your financial situation gotten better or worse? Have you been looking for a job? If yes, were you able to find a good paying job? Have you been able to keep your job you already have, or have your hours been cut? And how many of you have lost your homes to foreclosure under the Democrat led Congress?
Michigan has one of the highest unemployment rates and foreclosure rates in the United States. How can we even consider letting the Democrats run this state, or any other state, for another two years.
I firmly believe that President Obama is going to be a one-term President. Honestly, I think he knows it. That's why he was pushing is far-left liberal agenda while he had both houses of Congress. It was the only way to get these extreme left agendas passed.
I have to be careful here. There are Democrats and Republicans that are close to the center. There are democrats who really are listening to the people that they represent. It is my hope that people will actually listen and do research on the people they are voting for. I pray that they will vote their conscience and vote for the person who most represents their own feelings and observations.
I think that the American people want Congress to stop the excessive spending, get the damn budget under control, get rid of Obamacare, stop handing out welfare checks and 99 weeks of unemployment checks. You can't tell me that any self-respecting adult would rather sit on his ass and get a welfare check in the mail than go out and get a job that he can earn a good wage and benefits and be able to support his family. I know that most people are good inside and we've gotten so used to standing there with their hands out.
I have a fantastic friend who has made alot of changes in her life, all in the effort to improve life for her children and herself. She wants to work, she wants to find her dream job, earn a good wage, buy a new home for herself and her kids. We need people in Washington who are going to help her do that, and every other hard-working American. Think about all these things as you go to vote tomorrow.
Jason just turned 18 and this is the first election he gets to vote in. I'm so excited for him, because it's such an important thing to do as an American, yet we take it for granted. Men and Women died for the right to vote. I remember when I turned 18 I got to vote in 1988 and I voted for President Reagan. It was so exciting to be able to vote, and I'm glad that Jason gets to take part tomorrow.
And if you are looking at your non-partisan portion of your ballot, it doesn't mean they are non-partisan. Do the research and see if they are liberal or conservative judges, and then go with your gut.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Loving Every Minute Of It
I haven't posted for a few days, but it was on purpose. I've been thinking alot about what I might want to post and about what happened with my sister last week. I have to say, I really lost my temper. I was extremely angry over what happened and I went through my Facebook friends list and deleted the ones who are mutual friends of Tina and I and follow my blog. Then, I cleaned out a few more that don't rarely post.
It's Thursday night and it's been a really long week. I had a $1200 repair on the Excursion, the Trans Am needs a $250 tire replaced, I need tires on my truck (for the bargain price of $775). Just hasn't been a good week for auto's at our house. A very expensive week! Add to that, a sick kid. John puked up snot. Has your kid ever done that before.....do you know how gross that is? Makes me gag just thinking about it.
Aside from all of that, I had a great day today. I went to see Dr. Winters and we had a great session today. I talked mostly about work and such. Sometimes I leave there feeling.....for lack of a better word....yucky! Most weeks I don't, but sometimes you just have that type of session. Today, it was good. She helped me put together some solid ideas on how to deal with some things going on in my life....family and money wise.
You know, that's what I LOVE about Dr. Winters. Way back when I first left Paul I went to therapy for about 6 months. I went week after week, spending $50 each visit and the woman didn't help me a damn bit. Seriously, she sat and listened and took notes and didn't give me one positive thing to do to help myself feel better. I got no advice. I got no assignments. I got nothing for all the money I spent.
I found the right doctor this time. Thank goodness. I might even begin to feel normal again....I'm getting closer. :)
Sorry, I tend to get away from my original thoughts. Oh well, it's my blog right. We discussed this last time.
So, I had my appt and I had my allergy shot. Got my little sickling situated and I started putting together my toothfairy pillows. I used to sell stuff on Ebay all the time, and I really did make a decent amount of money. I also make really nice gun socks, and I sold a shit load of them a few years back. I've done my research on Ebay to see what's available and what these items are selling for. I'm sorry, but for the price, my stuff is so much nicer. I'm actually quite crafty and creative. Have I already said that in a post? Either that or I just had a brain fart, lol. Hold on...I think I have a picture of my toothfairy pillow....it's so cute.
Isn't that cute? It's not as little as it looks. And the little "toothfairy" is actually a pocket for the tooth to go in and then the toothfairy can leave some money in the pocket. I'm going to sell them for $10...which is what the crappy ones on Ebay are selling for.
And like I said, I make gun socks and I also make rice bags....you know the ones with lavendar in them? You put them in the microwave for a minute or two and you have something so much better than a heating pad. Plus, because of the rice, it's a moist heat and the lavendar is used to naturally relax you. John has one that has bucks on it, as in deer. Sami had a Spongebob ricebag, until she puked all over it. So, we'll be making her a new one shortly.
Our weekend project, to get the 8 gunsocks and 3 toothfairy pillows that are all cut out....sewed together. And then listed on Ebay. I was really shocked when I saw how amateur the current ones listed on Ebay are.
Our friend Lisa owns a Salon in Ohio and I showed the pillow to her. She LOVED it and told me I should put them in a salon here and sell them for $10. I'm wondering if I can find a place to put them and then give them a percentage of what I sell. Who knows, isn't this how small businesses start? Isn't this how small ideas turn into big successes?
I'm not saying I'll be a millionaire by selling rice bags and toothfairy pillows, but you never know what the Universe has in store for you. I don't know why, but I've had this urge to sew and I dragged all this stuff out today and worked on it all afternoon while doing laundry etc. Sami went through my entire button tin and sorted about 5000 buttons out by color. As you can see, my pillows have buttons sewed on the four corners. She had fun too. And Scott's the best, he made me a craft room downstairs so I have all kinds of countertop and tables and such.
I'm working on creating a boy toothfairy pillow. A while back I bought a huge amount of fabric for boys and girls. Oh, and it's flannel, so they are soft. But I bought material for boy and girl pillows and the trim to go with the pillows. Boys loose teeth too. John is so excited to have one. I have material with trees and bucks on it, material that is blue and white with monkey's on it.....way too cute. And alot of other really cool material for pillows and rice bags.
Ok, I've rambled enough about my crafts. It's just something that is very relaxing to me and it made for a great day to be able to hang out with Sami. Seriously a stress reducer for me. Like my blog.
Well, I'm off to the TMAT facebook page to check out what I need to post for work. Until we speak again, keep it real!
It's Thursday night and it's been a really long week. I had a $1200 repair on the Excursion, the Trans Am needs a $250 tire replaced, I need tires on my truck (for the bargain price of $775). Just hasn't been a good week for auto's at our house. A very expensive week! Add to that, a sick kid. John puked up snot. Has your kid ever done that before.....do you know how gross that is? Makes me gag just thinking about it.
Aside from all of that, I had a great day today. I went to see Dr. Winters and we had a great session today. I talked mostly about work and such. Sometimes I leave there feeling.....for lack of a better word....yucky! Most weeks I don't, but sometimes you just have that type of session. Today, it was good. She helped me put together some solid ideas on how to deal with some things going on in my life....family and money wise.
You know, that's what I LOVE about Dr. Winters. Way back when I first left Paul I went to therapy for about 6 months. I went week after week, spending $50 each visit and the woman didn't help me a damn bit. Seriously, she sat and listened and took notes and didn't give me one positive thing to do to help myself feel better. I got no advice. I got no assignments. I got nothing for all the money I spent.
I found the right doctor this time. Thank goodness. I might even begin to feel normal again....I'm getting closer. :)
Sorry, I tend to get away from my original thoughts. Oh well, it's my blog right. We discussed this last time.
So, I had my appt and I had my allergy shot. Got my little sickling situated and I started putting together my toothfairy pillows. I used to sell stuff on Ebay all the time, and I really did make a decent amount of money. I also make really nice gun socks, and I sold a shit load of them a few years back. I've done my research on Ebay to see what's available and what these items are selling for. I'm sorry, but for the price, my stuff is so much nicer. I'm actually quite crafty and creative. Have I already said that in a post? Either that or I just had a brain fart, lol. Hold on...I think I have a picture of my toothfairy pillow....it's so cute.
Isn't that cute? It's not as little as it looks. And the little "toothfairy" is actually a pocket for the tooth to go in and then the toothfairy can leave some money in the pocket. I'm going to sell them for $10...which is what the crappy ones on Ebay are selling for.
And like I said, I make gun socks and I also make rice bags....you know the ones with lavendar in them? You put them in the microwave for a minute or two and you have something so much better than a heating pad. Plus, because of the rice, it's a moist heat and the lavendar is used to naturally relax you. John has one that has bucks on it, as in deer. Sami had a Spongebob ricebag, until she puked all over it. So, we'll be making her a new one shortly.
Our weekend project, to get the 8 gunsocks and 3 toothfairy pillows that are all cut out....sewed together. And then listed on Ebay. I was really shocked when I saw how amateur the current ones listed on Ebay are.
Our friend Lisa owns a Salon in Ohio and I showed the pillow to her. She LOVED it and told me I should put them in a salon here and sell them for $10. I'm wondering if I can find a place to put them and then give them a percentage of what I sell. Who knows, isn't this how small businesses start? Isn't this how small ideas turn into big successes?
I'm not saying I'll be a millionaire by selling rice bags and toothfairy pillows, but you never know what the Universe has in store for you. I don't know why, but I've had this urge to sew and I dragged all this stuff out today and worked on it all afternoon while doing laundry etc. Sami went through my entire button tin and sorted about 5000 buttons out by color. As you can see, my pillows have buttons sewed on the four corners. She had fun too. And Scott's the best, he made me a craft room downstairs so I have all kinds of countertop and tables and such.
I'm working on creating a boy toothfairy pillow. A while back I bought a huge amount of fabric for boys and girls. Oh, and it's flannel, so they are soft. But I bought material for boy and girl pillows and the trim to go with the pillows. Boys loose teeth too. John is so excited to have one. I have material with trees and bucks on it, material that is blue and white with monkey's on it.....way too cute. And alot of other really cool material for pillows and rice bags.
Ok, I've rambled enough about my crafts. It's just something that is very relaxing to me and it made for a great day to be able to hang out with Sami. Seriously a stress reducer for me. Like my blog.
Well, I'm off to the TMAT facebook page to check out what I need to post for work. Until we speak again, keep it real!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
It's My Blog! If You Don't Like It You Can Go To Hell
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind” – Dr. Seuss
Very wise words by Dr. Seuss and passed on to me by my friend Beth. I can always count on you Beth. You've always got my back! You're a great friend and I love ya!
Ok, I've decided to follow the advice that Beth gave me, and the advice of good ole Dr. Seuss! I'm staying put. And if I write something that someone doesn't like, well that's just too damn bad. If you don't like my blog, don't read it. Go back to your facebook page, or find another blog to follow....I really don't give a shit. I've finally realized that I'm too old to change, I am who I am, and if you don't like it......I really don't care.
Huh, it only took 6 months of therapy for me to come to that conclusion. It's funny because since the day I met Scott he has been a person who doesn't give a shit about what people think of him. He's brutally honest, even when it hurts someone. I shouldn't say he's that way with me, he sorta tip toes around me for obvious reasons. However, he really doesn't care if a person likes him or not. He is who he is. Period!
I've always told Scott that I admire that about him. To not care what people think of you. Do you know how much time I spend worrying about what people might think of me, might be saying about me, or might be mad at me? I'd be embarassed to tell you. I've discussed this quite a bit with Dr. Winters.
Let's think about this. Why do I care about what people think? I'm not talking about my family, I'm talking about ramdom people in my life. Why does it bother me if someone thinks I'm a bitch? I get so absolutely insane about it that I turn bitch on Scott. How the hell is that fair? I get all bitchy with him and he's got to settle me down. Not fair.
I love that Scott is not afraid to call someone on something they've said or something they've done. I am NOT that way. I will deliberately go out of my way to NOT hurt someone's feelings. Not Scott. If he has a quesiton about something, he will come right out and ask you.
My friend Kathie and her husband have been entertaining the idea of selling their house (north of Lowell) and moving into Lowell. And he's bugging and bugging and bugging me to ask her why she's not interested in buying our house! Well, I'm sorry, I'm just not that way. But not Scott. Last weekend, he comes right out and asks her why she isn't interested in buying our house? For crying out loud!
Of course, I feel embarassed that he comes right out and asks her. Here is opinion. It's like buying a purse. If you're a woman, you'll understand what I'm saying. A purse is a very personal thing and every woman likes a certain kind of purse. She might want one with a built in wallet, or a spot to hold her cell phone. You can't buy a purse for another woman, because it's too personal.
The same thing goes for a house. As women, we look for certain things in a house. When I look at a house the first thing I look at is the kitchen. Then, I want to see if there is a big dining room. See, we spend alot of time in the kitchen as a family and even with our friends. So we need a big kitchen. And I like an eat in kitchen, it can also have a formal dining room, but I want room for a kitchen table somewhere open to the kitchen.
The next thing I look at is how big the master bedroom is and the bathrooms. We have a large family and need more than one bathroom.
I don't know what's most important, there are all these factors that need to come together for the house to be perfect for me. I think we live in a great house right now. It just isn't big enough for our family needs. Honestly, I think the house would be perfect for Kathie and her family. She has three kids and her parents are about a mile away and her Aunt, who is her daycare lady as well as mine, is only 2 blocks away.
With that said, if Kathie and her husband don't feel like this is the right house for them, I am in no way offended. Scott says he is, but thats just Scott being Scott. I'm not offended because a house is a personal thing. We've looked at probably 6 or 7 different houses over the last couple weeks and only 2 have really gotten my attention. But both have offers pending, so I guess it wasn't the right time for us. Honestly, I'd found my dream house and the price was well under what we planned on spending. It was perfect. It was 5 bedrooms and 5 or 6 bathrooms. They were huge rooms, all of them and it was my dream house. But we haven't sold ours and the bank is sitting on two separate offers from other people on my dream house.
Things happen for a reason. I know that it is dangerous to be looking at houses when our house hasn't sold. But, what if someone comes along tomorrow and wants to buy our house. Stranger things have happened. Then what, we start eliminating houses at that point?
If we find a house we love, and it's meant to be, then we'll get the house of our dreams. I told Scott today, things always work out for the two of us. Somehow, they always work out. Maybe not the way we anticipated, and definitely not as fast as we'd like things to happen, but somehow things always work out for us. I'm not a super preachy religious type of person, but I believe that things happen for a reason. I believe that God has a plan for us. So right now, we're standing by to see what He has in store for us.
We should never presume to think that the Universe is going to revolve around our personal time schedule. lol If I had it my way, our house would have sold within the first week of Dale listing it. I think we have a great house and it's going to be perfect for a family who's looking to live in town, but not be able to see in your neighbors window (we have over double lot), we have a 3 stall pole barn on top of having a garage with a 3 season porch off the back, and a deck. Our basement is finished with wood floors and a fireplace.
I know that this is going to be someones dream house. I don't know when that is going to happen, but it will. And I know I got off my topic here, sorry. It's me trying to be positive and trying to put out positive vibes. I don't want to alienate Kathie just because she isn't interested in buying our house. It's ok with me. I wish she was interested, but it's not the right house for her and I hope that she finds her dream house too.
So, if you want to run off and tattle to Kathie that I talked about her in my blog, you can go fuck yourself! I'm done worrying about what someone is going to think about what I have to say. Just wait, elections are just around the corner and I'm just itching to start talking about that. I have to laugh because when I was scanning through my old posts, there were tons of political posts. I LOVE talking politics! I love to banter back and forth and prove my point. Maybe I should have been a politician??? LOL. I don't think I have it in me to be a suck up and a back stabber at the same time.
Until next time....as my beautiful friend Beth says....Peace to all.....
Very wise words by Dr. Seuss and passed on to me by my friend Beth. I can always count on you Beth. You've always got my back! You're a great friend and I love ya!
Ok, I've decided to follow the advice that Beth gave me, and the advice of good ole Dr. Seuss! I'm staying put. And if I write something that someone doesn't like, well that's just too damn bad. If you don't like my blog, don't read it. Go back to your facebook page, or find another blog to follow....I really don't give a shit. I've finally realized that I'm too old to change, I am who I am, and if you don't like it......I really don't care.
Huh, it only took 6 months of therapy for me to come to that conclusion. It's funny because since the day I met Scott he has been a person who doesn't give a shit about what people think of him. He's brutally honest, even when it hurts someone. I shouldn't say he's that way with me, he sorta tip toes around me for obvious reasons. However, he really doesn't care if a person likes him or not. He is who he is. Period!
I've always told Scott that I admire that about him. To not care what people think of you. Do you know how much time I spend worrying about what people might think of me, might be saying about me, or might be mad at me? I'd be embarassed to tell you. I've discussed this quite a bit with Dr. Winters.
Let's think about this. Why do I care about what people think? I'm not talking about my family, I'm talking about ramdom people in my life. Why does it bother me if someone thinks I'm a bitch? I get so absolutely insane about it that I turn bitch on Scott. How the hell is that fair? I get all bitchy with him and he's got to settle me down. Not fair.
I love that Scott is not afraid to call someone on something they've said or something they've done. I am NOT that way. I will deliberately go out of my way to NOT hurt someone's feelings. Not Scott. If he has a quesiton about something, he will come right out and ask you.
My friend Kathie and her husband have been entertaining the idea of selling their house (north of Lowell) and moving into Lowell. And he's bugging and bugging and bugging me to ask her why she's not interested in buying our house! Well, I'm sorry, I'm just not that way. But not Scott. Last weekend, he comes right out and asks her why she isn't interested in buying our house? For crying out loud!
Of course, I feel embarassed that he comes right out and asks her. Here is opinion. It's like buying a purse. If you're a woman, you'll understand what I'm saying. A purse is a very personal thing and every woman likes a certain kind of purse. She might want one with a built in wallet, or a spot to hold her cell phone. You can't buy a purse for another woman, because it's too personal.
The same thing goes for a house. As women, we look for certain things in a house. When I look at a house the first thing I look at is the kitchen. Then, I want to see if there is a big dining room. See, we spend alot of time in the kitchen as a family and even with our friends. So we need a big kitchen. And I like an eat in kitchen, it can also have a formal dining room, but I want room for a kitchen table somewhere open to the kitchen.
The next thing I look at is how big the master bedroom is and the bathrooms. We have a large family and need more than one bathroom.
I don't know what's most important, there are all these factors that need to come together for the house to be perfect for me. I think we live in a great house right now. It just isn't big enough for our family needs. Honestly, I think the house would be perfect for Kathie and her family. She has three kids and her parents are about a mile away and her Aunt, who is her daycare lady as well as mine, is only 2 blocks away.
With that said, if Kathie and her husband don't feel like this is the right house for them, I am in no way offended. Scott says he is, but thats just Scott being Scott. I'm not offended because a house is a personal thing. We've looked at probably 6 or 7 different houses over the last couple weeks and only 2 have really gotten my attention. But both have offers pending, so I guess it wasn't the right time for us. Honestly, I'd found my dream house and the price was well under what we planned on spending. It was perfect. It was 5 bedrooms and 5 or 6 bathrooms. They were huge rooms, all of them and it was my dream house. But we haven't sold ours and the bank is sitting on two separate offers from other people on my dream house.
Things happen for a reason. I know that it is dangerous to be looking at houses when our house hasn't sold. But, what if someone comes along tomorrow and wants to buy our house. Stranger things have happened. Then what, we start eliminating houses at that point?
If we find a house we love, and it's meant to be, then we'll get the house of our dreams. I told Scott today, things always work out for the two of us. Somehow, they always work out. Maybe not the way we anticipated, and definitely not as fast as we'd like things to happen, but somehow things always work out for us. I'm not a super preachy religious type of person, but I believe that things happen for a reason. I believe that God has a plan for us. So right now, we're standing by to see what He has in store for us.
We should never presume to think that the Universe is going to revolve around our personal time schedule. lol If I had it my way, our house would have sold within the first week of Dale listing it. I think we have a great house and it's going to be perfect for a family who's looking to live in town, but not be able to see in your neighbors window (we have over double lot), we have a 3 stall pole barn on top of having a garage with a 3 season porch off the back, and a deck. Our basement is finished with wood floors and a fireplace.
I know that this is going to be someones dream house. I don't know when that is going to happen, but it will. And I know I got off my topic here, sorry. It's me trying to be positive and trying to put out positive vibes. I don't want to alienate Kathie just because she isn't interested in buying our house. It's ok with me. I wish she was interested, but it's not the right house for her and I hope that she finds her dream house too.
So, if you want to run off and tattle to Kathie that I talked about her in my blog, you can go fuck yourself! I'm done worrying about what someone is going to think about what I have to say. Just wait, elections are just around the corner and I'm just itching to start talking about that. I have to laugh because when I was scanning through my old posts, there were tons of political posts. I LOVE talking politics! I love to banter back and forth and prove my point. Maybe I should have been a politician??? LOL. I don't think I have it in me to be a suck up and a back stabber at the same time.
Until next time....as my beautiful friend Beth says....Peace to all.....
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