It's My Blog! If You Don't Like It You Can Go To Hell

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind” – Dr. Seuss



Very wise words by Dr. Seuss and passed on to me by my friend Beth.  I can always count on you Beth.  You've always got my back!  You're a great friend and I love ya!

Ok, I've decided to follow the advice that Beth gave me, and the advice of good ole Dr. Seuss!  I'm staying put.  And if I write something that someone doesn't like, well that's just too damn bad.  If you don't like my blog, don't read it.  Go back to your facebook page, or find another blog to follow....I really don't give a shit.  I've finally realized that I'm too old to change, I am who I am, and if you don't like it......I really don't care.

Huh, it only took 6 months of therapy for me to come to that conclusion.  It's funny because since the day I met Scott he has been a person who doesn't give a shit about what people think of him.  He's brutally honest, even when it hurts someone.  I shouldn't say he's that way with me, he sorta tip toes around me for obvious reasons.  However, he really doesn't care if a person likes him or not.  He is who he is.  Period!  

I've always told Scott that I admire that about him.  To not care what people think of you.  Do you know how much time I spend worrying about what people might think of me, might be saying about me, or might be mad at me?  I'd be embarassed to tell you.  I've discussed this quite a bit with Dr. Winters.  

Let's think about this.  Why do I care about what people think?  I'm not talking about my family, I'm talking about ramdom people in my life.  Why does it bother me if someone thinks I'm a bitch?  I get so absolutely insane about it that I turn bitch on Scott.  How the hell is that fair?  I get all bitchy with him and he's got to settle me down.  Not fair.

I love that Scott is not afraid to call someone on something they've said or something they've done.  I am NOT that way.  I will deliberately go out of my way to NOT hurt someone's feelings.  Not Scott.  If he has a quesiton about something, he will come right out and ask you.

My friend Kathie and her husband have been entertaining the idea of selling their house (north of Lowell) and moving into Lowell.  And he's bugging and bugging and bugging me to ask her why she's not interested in buying our house!  Well, I'm sorry, I'm just not that way.  But not Scott.  Last weekend, he comes right out and asks her why she isn't interested in buying our house?  For crying out loud!

Of course, I feel embarassed that he comes right out and asks her.  Here is opinion.  It's like buying a purse.  If you're a woman, you'll understand what I'm saying.  A purse is a very personal thing and every woman likes a certain kind of purse.  She might want one with a built in wallet, or a spot to hold her cell phone.  You can't buy a purse for another woman, because it's too personal.

The same thing goes for a house.  As women, we look for certain things in a house.  When I look at a house the first thing I look at is the kitchen.  Then, I want to see if there is a big dining room.  See, we spend alot of time in the kitchen as a family and even with our friends.  So we need a big kitchen.  And I like an eat in kitchen, it can also have a formal dining room, but I want room for a kitchen table somewhere open to the kitchen.

The next thing I look at is how big the master bedroom is and the bathrooms.  We have a large family and need more than one bathroom.  

I don't know what's most important, there are all these factors that need to come together for the house to be perfect for me.  I think we live in a great house right now.  It just isn't big enough for our family needs.  Honestly, I think the house would be perfect for Kathie and her family.  She has three kids and her parents are about a mile away and her Aunt, who is her daycare lady as well as mine, is only 2 blocks away.  

With that said, if Kathie and her husband don't feel like this is the right house for them, I am in no way offended.  Scott says he is, but thats just Scott being Scott.  I'm not offended because a house is a personal thing.  We've looked at probably 6 or 7 different houses over the last couple weeks and only 2 have really gotten my attention.  But both have offers pending, so I guess it wasn't the right time for us.  Honestly, I'd found my dream house and the price was well under what we planned on spending.  It was perfect.  It was 5 bedrooms and 5 or 6 bathrooms.  They were huge rooms, all of them and it was my dream house.  But we haven't sold ours and the bank is sitting on two separate offers from other people on my dream house.

Things happen for a reason.  I know that it is dangerous to be looking at houses when our house hasn't sold.  But, what if someone comes along tomorrow and wants to buy our house.  Stranger things have happened.  Then what, we start eliminating houses at that point?  

If we find a house we love, and it's meant to be, then we'll get the house of our dreams.  I told Scott today, things always work out for the two of us.  Somehow, they always work out.  Maybe not the way we anticipated, and definitely not as fast as we'd like things to happen, but somehow things always work out for us.  I'm not a super preachy religious type of person, but I believe that things happen for a reason.  I believe that God has a plan for us.  So right now, we're standing by to see what He has in store for us. 

We should never presume to think that the Universe is going to revolve around our personal time schedule.  lol  If I had it my way, our house would have sold within the first week of Dale listing it.  I think we have a great house and it's going to be perfect for a family who's looking to live in town, but not be able to see in your neighbors window (we have over double lot), we have a 3 stall pole barn on top of having a garage with a 3 season porch off the back, and a deck.  Our basement is finished with wood floors and a fireplace.

I know that this is going to be someones dream house.  I don't know when that is going to happen, but it will.  And I know I got off my topic here, sorry.  It's me trying to be positive and trying to put out positive vibes.  I don't want to alienate Kathie just because she isn't interested in buying our house.  It's ok with me.  I wish she was interested, but it's not the right house for her and I hope that she finds her dream house too.

So, if you want to run off and tattle to Kathie that I talked about her in my blog, you can go fuck yourself!  I'm done worrying about what someone is going to think about what I have to say.  Just wait, elections are just around the corner and I'm just itching to start talking about that.  I have to laugh because when I was scanning through my old posts, there were tons of political posts.  I LOVE talking politics!  I love to banter back and forth and prove my point.  Maybe I should have been a politician???  LOL.  I don't think I have it in me to be a suck up and a back stabber at the same time.

Until next time....as my beautiful friend Beth says....Peace to all.....