HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON

Today is Jason's 18th birthday!  And, for purely selfish reasons I'm sitting here feeling so sad right now. 

I know that I shouldn't feel sad, today is a day for celebration!  Jason is so excited because he's old enough to vote in the upcoming election.  He's able to get his chauffer's license and will become a driver for TMAT.  That means more money, and that's good for him!

The reason I'm so sad is that he asked if it would be ok for him to spend the day downtown with his friends instead of doing cake and icecream.  Of course it's ok.  Duh!  I want him to be happy and I want him to spend his birthday with his friends, if that's what he wants to do.

I'm just being selfish, and after 17 years of birthday's together, I'm feeling sad that he's not at home with me.  But, I think that's how mom's are supposed to feel.  I'm slowly trying to get used to the fact that he is a young adult.  He'll be moving into a dorm at Aquinas in just a couple of months.  That'll be a HUGE change for me. 

I know it's a parent's job to raise their children to be self-sufficient contributing members of society, I get that.  Doesn't mean it's easy for me to let go.  He hasn't even moved out and I miss him terribly.  We don't see much of each other these days.

He came home a few minutes ago, in between these two paragraphs and we chatted in the kitchen.  His friends took him to Buffalo Wild Wings, and they had balloons and food for him.  Much more fun than sitting at home with mom and dad eating cake, lol.  He showed me all the cool stuff he got for his muzzle loader.  He got a scope, and all the stuff that you need to actually shoot something.  He's very excited about it.  So, I got my half hour and I feel much better.

Tomorrow we'll have cake and icecream and presents.  And, it'll all be good!