Reality Check!

Wow, I was in a mood the last time I wrote.  Found out a couple of things this week that really put me back into reality.

A classmate of mine, who I've known since....Middle School.....I would have to guess.  Well, she is very sick.  Last year another friend, Dee Strong passed away and it hit me like a brick.  We hadn't spoken in a long time but had started chatting on Facebook.  She was so young and it was so sad, and even though we hadn't spoken in a very long time I felt a sadness that I can't even describe.  I cried off and on about Dee for a good two to three weeks.

I went to the visitation down at Roth-Gerst with my friend Stacy.  Another friend of ours, Kim, had just come from her Doctor and she'd gotten bad news.  What I hadn't known was that she had been fighting cancer for quite some time.  She said that she had gotten bad news from her doctor, but she didn't elaborate.  In my mind I knew because I know how it was for Scott's mom the 6 months of her life.  She has young kids for crying out loud.  And she is a beautiful, loving, and caring person. 

Today, after not being online for about a week, I signed into Facebook to find that Kim was at Spectrum and on a ventilator.  Her doctors are trying to send her home Friday to spend her last few days with her family.  I'm just in shock.  I'm sad because I can't imagine how her husband and her boys are feeling right now, helpless I imagine.

I'm just bitching about it being a long week and how I haven't felt well and then I get a little dose of reality and learn that a friend of mine, the second in such a short time, will be gone soon.  What do I have to complain about? 

The fact is that I have had a couple of tough weeks and I feel like hell.  But compared to so many people, my problems are so simple.  I don't handle stress very well and I'm trying to work on that.  I've been taking medication for anxiety and am trying to get myself off of that too, and I think that's where my crappy-ness is coming from.  Reality Tracy.  You have a wonderful husband, four healthy kids, a nice truck, and a roof over your head.  You have a gravy job and besides needing to lose some weight, I'm generally healthy.  I have the world by the ass and I don't even know it.

My friend Beth is quitting a smoking habit.  She is blogging about it, which you should check out.  It's listed under my favorite Blog's on this page.  I admire her for being strong enough to quit and do whatever she needs to do to quit.  It's not easy.  I know because I can't even lose a few pounds because I like to eat.  I'm a stress eater, that's how it is.  Beth, I'm damn proud of you!

Well, this isn't exactly the post I was thinking about today but I went into Facebook first and read about Kim.  I'm so sad for her and her family.  She is my age and she has young kids.  It breaks my heart that they are going to lose their mom.  I'm praying for their strength.