Back At It Again

Scott has lost 22 pounds, and he looks GOOD! He told me he is working on 20 more. Well, that got me thinking.......as I looked in the mirror.

In my mind, I'm not a fat person. I'm a thin person! When I'm sitting in a chair and I look down I don't see a really overweight person. Have you ever done this? Well, if you want a dose of reality go stand in front of a mirror. For me, it's a scary thing to do.

So, I've had to buy some new dress clothes for my new job. I've been really disgusted over the size that I had to buy. I'm in there trying on clothes at the store and I'm not happy. Well, it's not like the weight is going to just fall off of me.

So, today is a new beginning. (Yeah, I know....but that's what I'm telling myself.) I am miserable in this fat person's body. I look at Scott and I see how hard he has worked to look good. And here I sit, a big blob! Yuck! I was telling Scott this morning that I was ready. And, he was like, "yeah". Well that ticked me off but he told me that I was six weeks too late. Meaning he was six weeks ahead of me. Well, I told him that you have to be mentally ready to diet. Now, I'm finally mentally ready.

I got my haircut and highlighted. Well, my hair looks really blonde now....not exactly the look I was going for, but that's how it is for now. Next time, low lights instead of highlights. This is really summer hair and not fall hair. But, it'll be ok.

This morning I woke up early with Sami and decided today is the day. Today! Today! Today! I've had it. When I get hungry and want to eat junk, I'm going to look in the mirror and remind myself why I'm not going to eat junk. So, this morning Jourdan, John, Sami and I took a walk. Well, the kids rode and I walked. We went into town and fed the ducks and then we walked back. I think we went about 2 miles....maybe a little bit more. Then when we got back and Sami went down for her nap, I worked out a little with my hand weights.

I've had about 400 calories so far today. I'm hungry, so to avoid something bad happening I decided to sign in and post something. Here I am, and of course now that I'm writing, Sami is awake from her nap. Never fails, lol.

I don't want to keep embarrasing myself by talking about diets and then drop the ball. So I can't do that this time. Besides, the fact that Scott has lost so much weight is giving me alot of ambition. He looks really good and I don't want him to walk around with a fat wife. So, I'm at it again. Wish me luck!